I always thought my dad liked me, but lately things are starting to show up indicating that he really might not.
He married my mother, because he felt pressured into it. She went crazy and made life miserable for a long time until they divorced just a few years ago.
When i was little, he used to take me out for breakfast every Saturday morning. It was one of my best memories. But this weekend when I saw him, he said, he just took me out on the weekends because my mother was hungover.
My husband and I went to help him remove trees from his yard on Sunday. When my husband was finished with the trees, my dad slipped him twenty dollars and told my husband not to tell me about it, because I was so cheep and I would be taking away his money. I am cheep, but I don’t think telling my husband I need to borrow two dollars for milk is taking money away from him.
My dad remarried a very nice lady who has two teenaged children. He’s very affectionate with them, he was never that way with me. He buys them nice things, lends them money and he’s always willing to talk to them. Back when I lived there, if I tried to talk to him about my feelings, his response was always " Don’t worry about it"
I’m all grown up now, I haven’t been living there for 12 years now, and I know I sound like a whiny baby, but I really don’t think he ever wanted me. My husband also sees it.
It’s kind of hard to accept that.