Well, I’m a big manga fan, but manga is NOT good for me, since many do take up the issue of love.
Well, thing is, I don’t have anyone that I do love. And it’s getting at me. I don’t have many friends, and those I have I rarely meet.
So, the more I read of these comics, the more depressed I get. I have a medical history of depressions, so 'tis not good. As of now, I’m just about as low as I was a couple of years ago. I nearly slashed my wrists back then. WTF should I do?
You’ve already done the first thing: reach out and ask for help. This is one of the better places to find it. Second, if you’re not in therapy, get into it immediately! I realize the search for a decent therapist can be almost as bad as the depression itself, but a good one will help! If things get really bad, please call a suicide hotline. They’ve saved my neck a few times.
I also haven’t had a lot of friends for most of my life, but the ones I do have are good quality. Tuesday night I was severely depressed, so I called one of them and left a message. He called back shortly afterwards, and just talking with him and his partner about all sorts of trivial stuff got me through the night and left me feeling a lot better.
Finally, I know I have to be careful about what I watch when I’m feeling down. I’ve been fighting depression harder than usual since I lost my job, so renting two movies I wanted to see, Brassed Off and The Full Monty wasn’t the best idea in hindsight because the lead characters were in the same boat I was in. I won’t watch Titanic right now either because I suspect it will bring me down. Instead, I recommend comedies, preferably light and screwball. I’ve started on Terry Pratchett’s books and they’re working beautifully.
E-mail me if you need to. It’s been over 20 years since my first suicide attempt, and I’m still kicking around. Also, please post back. I’m very concerned about you right now. Please, hang in there. It does get better, and loneliness does pass. I was 25 years old before I fell in love, and older than that before I realized I was likable. I haven’t seen anything about you to dislike, and a couple of things to like. I hope I get a chance to see more.
Take care,
CJ
People are over rated. When I am not on the net I talk to about 5 people with any regularity. I am sure that you have net friends who are in some ways better than live ones because they dont come over and drink all your beer. If you need to feel loved , try getting a dog. They will love you no matter what. You can combat dpression with exercise. You can set goals and work towards them all on your own. When you are done you will be able to set new goals and you will have something that no one can take from you. That something is self respect.It might sound crazy , but trust me, as soon as you hit your first goal your self respect will soar and your problems wont seem so big any more.