A decade ago, I would have felt that to be a highly accurate way to describe our situation. The thing is, I accepted that we wouldn’t be together, and moved on, as I’ve described. As we’ve gotten older and wiser, all that high-strung hormonal stuff receded into the background, and the last couple of years have been great for our friendship, until whatever is happening now.
I know what to look for in a woman, and I credit my experience with Renata when we first met with opening my eyes to that, however painful it was at the time. I know I can find someone who makes me feel like she did, and I’m trying to do that. I knew that a long time ago. I know this person won’t be Renata.
I love her in the most literal sense, as another friend put it.