START, I’m very sorry to hear this. If you need to shout out, that’s what we’re here for.
START, I’m so sorry.
I am so incredibly sorry for your loss.
You are such a wonderfully loving brother to try to cover your brother up when he’s cold and to give him some dignity.
Nothing else I can say will improve on the sympathy of other Dopers here, but know that our sentiments are genuine.
We are all very sorry, START. I hope you and your family can find the strength to get through this.
START, my prayers, thoughts and condolences are with you and your family right now.
hugs START for a long time My prayers and best wishes are with you.
I am so sorry Start. I lost my younger brother when he was 7 and I was 9. even now over 30 years later I sometimes wonder whether it would have happened if i had been there. The guilt kind of comes with the territory. As the oldest we were taught to look out for our sibbings, and even though it isn’t rational there is the guilt.
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I believe you were praying. I can’t think of a better prayer than loving someone. You were loving him enough to help see to the things he found important, and there is little that is more important to a thirteen year old boy than dignity. The CPR can’t open blocked lungs. You did what you could. You stepped up and did something. That counts.
This stranger in Wisconsin is sending her prayers.
START I’m praying for you and your family and all who loved your brother. A sudden death in someone so young is always hard to accept, and hard to cope with. If it is too much to carry on your own, seek out a counselor, a minister, or a wise adult who can help you find a way to recover from this, and help you understand the stages of grief. Don’t be afraid to ask for help, grief is a seriously heavy thing, especially for someone you were close to. I don’t know what I’d have done if my pesky younger brother had suddenly died when we were both still living with my parents. As much as he got on my nerves, I love him. comfort It’s hard to be so wracked with loss and sadness and guilt. Let go of the guilt, you did what you could, and I’m sure he was grateful for you trying to preserve his modesty.
My prayers and condolences, START. 
Lisa
I just wanted to mention that as you grieve, you might find yourself actually forgetting your brother for awhile, or laughing, or enjoying something, and then feel guilty for it, like you’re betraying your brother’s memory, or not feeling bad enough. Please don’t feel guilty - that’s the way grief and life work. You can honour your brother’s memory with laughter as well as tears.
An excellent point, featherlou. START, he’d want you to have fun, so don’t feel guilty about it, even though it may be a while before you do.
START, I’m sorry for your loss. I can tell you, though, as someone who recently lost someone very dear to them two weeks ago today, that it will start to get better.
My thoughts and prayers are with you.
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What a shocking thread to open- I too didn’t expect anything like this.
Strength and peace to you and your family.
Now I’m off to find Johnny’s thread…
START, lots and lots of people here love and support you. No one who has read posts about your brother could think this was a joke.
Please let us know how you’re doing and, as others have said, don’t keep your grief inside.
My prayers and good thoughts are with you, Zechariah, and your family.
GT
I’m so sorry, START.
You and your family have my deepest condolences - hang on.
I’m so very sorry, START.
START, I am so, so sorry for your loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.
My deepest condolences to you and your family, START.