These past couple of weeks have been rough for me. My depression has been, for lack of a better description, acting up. We’ve (we meaning my psychologist at school and me) decided that I’m in need of more aggressive treatment right now - hospitalization was mentioned, but only as a sort of last resort. Spring break is supposed to start next week, but my psychologist suggested that I take the rest of this week off - she was concerned that if I stayed at school, I’d push myself too hard and only make things worse. On Monday afternoon, I met with my dean, who is incredibly supportive and has talked with all of my professors for me. My dad picked me up from school this morning, and tomorrow I’m going to see my psychiatrist…
I know that all of the sorrow and hopelessness and… well, all of this bad stuff that’s within me right now will get better. I just don’t feel it right now. I’m not articulating what I’m thinking very well at the moment, but I know so many of you have been through the depths of depression and I trust that you’ll understand what it is that I’m feeling, even if I can’t explain it at the moment.
So, can someone just tell me that everything is going to be OK? Even if saying it doesn’t actually fix things, I think it will make me feel a little bit better.
Thanks for letting me vent for a moment.