Skald
I love you, man!
Our thoughts are with you.
Please keep telling us what you are thinking.
Tell your doctors; could be a medication side-effect, fixable with a change to whatever they are giving you.
Hang in there. Look at all the messages here that reference threads and memes that you’ve put up, and have drawn huge numbers of views – you count with a lot of us.
Skald, I agree that the nightmares as well as your feelings of hopelessness are likely medication-based. When I was in the hospital and on Ketamine, I had hallucinations about being buried in coffee beans and donuts. I’m NOT kidding! That actually was pretty cool, but it morphed into my being in the center of a spinning grey-carpeted drum or barrel. Vertigo. Once I was off the Special K (street name), that all disappeared.
I am a fully growed human. Every so often, the protagonists of my old nightmares turn up in my sleep – notable recurring horrors are The Blob and Christopher Lee, usually in his old turn as Hammer’s Dracula. (He did turn up, once, as Count Dooku). And as a fully growed human, in my dreams, sometimes I laugh at them. Other times I greet them like old friends of my youth. But they don’t scare me, and haven’t for a long time.
Especially Count Dooku.
But I am here to tell you that I had the worst dreams in years, last time I spent the night in hospital. I don’t remember what they were, but I do remember being utterly terrified. I’d have been HAPPY to see something as benign as Dracula…
Get out of there once they get you stable. A hospital is no place for sick people.
Not a problem. Get well.
Well, we’re used to that. 
Another vote for the nightmares being partially medically induced, and for hospitals being a breeding ground for nightmares. And those beds are uncomfortable.
ETA: The good news is that they will eventually throw your malingering ass out on the street, though I know it won’t be soon enough for you. Just stay away from the Hallmark Channel. World conquerors don’t need that shit.
There’s a new kind of drug resistant Shegella … (sorry for spelling)
Those nightmares come with hospitals and medications
Praying for you** Skald** my friend. Hang in there.
<3
Good luck.
If there’s any special supplications you’d like us to make to Athena, just let us know.
Get better soon, friend and future overlord. Okay, those might be a little contradictory, but who frikkin’ cares about details at a time like this.
Glad to hear Thanatos has decamped, Skald! Every step forward is a step in the right direction. Talk to your doc about the nightmares and meds. Get some good rest.
Am praying for you, Skald, and sending good vibes your way! Tomorrow is Easter Sunday. Believe it, miracles do happen.
Kick its ass, man. And assume the negative feelings are outside effects right now, not something you should let drag you down.
Okay. Starting Day Four. I think. Feels longer.
Slept better. If I had nightmares I don’t remember them. Gastrointestinal problems subsided. Legs aching. Hopefully my blood pressure will be low enough that they’ll send me home.
I miss the kids. I need to see my babies and hold them. It feels like they’re going to drift away from me. I know it’s only been a few days and that must sound crazy but that’s how I feel.
And I’m out of juice again.
Hang in, man, we’re pulling for you.
Exactly. Good thoughts from this small corner of the internet.
Life, (near) death, rebirth. Skald, you know the legends, the archetypes. You’re being transmogrified!
I await your final form!
[sub]get well soon[/sub]
Hang in there Skald. I always enjoy your posts and look forward to seeing more in the future.
Now I’m scared!
Happy update, Skald. Keep 'em coming!
I’ve been following all along, and hoping to hear good news. It’s sounding better. I hope that trend continues and that you’re home with your wife and children real soon now, with a diagnosis that lets you follow a treatment plan to a full and happy recovery.