Honestly, i can’t stand this.
My sister, 21, never stops bitching about how difficult her life is.
This was the worst year of my life.
The third day of school i took off during lunch and the cops searched for me for ten hours.
Put into a CCIS program , i refused to return to school.
Eventually, after going through a CAPHP program for almost 4 months, those moron doctors decided to put me on home instruction.
Honestly, you can’t tell me these people have had that much schooling not to notice that my assignments had thriving scores when i was on home instruction.
I can’t focus in school, especially sitting up front.
The people behind you could be judging you, saying what they want about you.
The majority of times that’s not what’s really happening, but the thoughts of everything WRONG with you go through your head, you know?
Flashing back a few years, my parents got separated after the first day of school of sixth grade. I had speculations that my dad was having an affair before the separation but I never really looked into it. I figured out that I was right, I found old emails about where they’d be meeting and such. Breaks my heart, no wonder my pops was always trying to be such a good guy. Boy, he had everyone fooled. So I figured that out, but the problem is that he won’t say it to my face. I know, that he knows, that I know; but he just won’t look me in the eyes and admit that he made a mistake. The reason? His mistress hoe chick and him just got engaged. My mom loves my dad still, but the person he was before his mom died. You see my grandma had plenty of health issues on her side. My dad watched the life leave her as the doctors shut off her life support. Now, my mom isn’t the greenest, healthiest veg-head in the world; but she does alright, she’s not about to drop dead. My speculations lead me to believe he likes this new chick because shes an uber gym goer veggie maniac. I can’t fucking stand her. She has two kids; 10, 13. I’m 14. My pops tries to mush us all together like a family, he wants us to be. I forget where i was going with this paragraph, this stuff gets me carried away.
Returning to the previous topic, my home instruction letter ended and i had a standoff with my school. They called a police officer to come speak to me. He put me in handcuffs and took me to school. He told me he trusted me and undid the cuffs. He then said this to me, that i had two choices: to get dragged in like a boy, or walk in like a man. I hadn’t been to school in 7 months, and it was 11:30 middle of the day. I walked in and sat, I had no books, and I could feel all the eyeballs starring through my shirt as the tears streamed down my face. I sat there and took abuse for two more months. The feeling of kids starring at me all day ripped at me.
I ended up not going to graduation, got my diploma in the mail.
So anyway, my sister and her boyfriend are sitting on my couch right now. I can;t find anywhere to sleep. My sheets got vomited on at her last party, she didnt bother to clean them or anything; she put them back on my bed. So, it’s like 1am here. I’m trying to sleep on the couch but those two bums won’t get off the couch and she has the nerve to tell me to go away.Go away she said, where am i to go? I’m tired, but there’s nowhere to sleep. Get your own goddamn place if your just going to freeload here all day. I guess I’m sleeping in this chair, or I could just go sleep on my matress with no sheets. But I can’t complain to much more, I probably sound like a snotty douchebag. At least I have a place to sleep that isn’t freezing as shit. At least I have food. I’m not going to say anything about school. As if school is the only place to learn things.