I’m tired of double and triple checking everything mentally to be sure everything is perfect before I say it.
I’m tired of wincing internally about things I’ve said just because I’ve said them and I have an overdeveloped sense of shame.
There’s so much I want to say and share with other people, but it’s just not in my nature to do it … and it sucks! Don’t get me wrong… I’m not an agoraphobe nor a misanthrope (most of the time). I have a wonderful support system, people who love me, a few good friends, a romantic life–this is not a self pity thread–well, not entirely. I just wish I could turn the volume up!
And I’ve been here long enough to know that this is a common complaint, and that it’s not a big deal, all things considered, but I just felt the need to vent a little bit.
Anyone ever successfully turn up their own voice in their life? How’d you do it?