I am posting this because I did not want my last post to be an angry Pit Thread. I have asked by email and I ask again here for the SDMB Administrators to please cancel my subscription.
As most who read this will know, I am going through many major life changes at the moment. My mother is dying and I have been sharing caregiver responsibilities with my sister until such time as I can become her primary caregiver (hopefully by early September). I am in the process of moving from my large but very full apartment to my mother’s equally full house (we’re both pack rats) and in addition to having to deal with the usual irritation of moving this requires deciding “do I really want to keep this book/side-table/sofa/entertainment unit” and if not, “who do I want to give it to?” and of course the physical packing and loading, etc., is a pain-in-the-bum chore as well. I have started a new job that is very different from my old one and, while I actually like it, I am very busy while there. I am driving about 1,000 miles per week and I am sleeping about 4 hours per night (and, as I’m narcoleptic, that’s not a lot ;)). These are the major things and there are many minor ones that range from sick dogs to home repairs to financial arrangements, and along the way I’m dealing with my own health problems and battling both situational and physiological depression with both hands.
In dealing with “The Big Issues”™ I have to act coolly and at times almost coldly and rationally, and I can do this. I’m not a particularly peaceful person by nature, however, and in diverting “The Big Issues” of their emotion so that I can stand on dry land and maneuver firmly and accordingly, the displaced passions make swamps of trivial issues. Things that I can normally deal with completely rationally if they required dealing with at all become little islands of obsession to which I overreact with borrowed fury. The harassing emails (some anonymous and some not) generated by certain Dopers affiliated with “another website” that is obsessed with this one has become one of the new dismal swamps, and while I know at the time I’m acting and responding irrationally it’s like vomit: I have to get it out, there is no stopping it, I cannot not do it, and that is a feeling I cannot stand.
I cannot do anything about most of “The Big Issues”™ as they are unavoidable, immutable, they cannot be dealt with by anybody but me and they are life-changing. This, however, is a distraction that I can avoid, but I must admit I need help with my addiction to this place. That is why I am voluntarily canceling my posting privileges, because it would be far too frustrating to read and not be able to post yet at the same time I’m too much of a ham to post as a sock. 
Any attempt to express the appreciation for emails and sentiments of support expressed here on the boards over the years but in particularly over the past few weeks would be completely sincere yet sound like hyperbole. They truly mean more than I currently have the time to say.
Thanks,
Jon
Admins/Mods: Please lock this thread so that it does not become glurge or more worthy of the Pit either one. And I am completely serious and rational when I ask you to remove my posting privileges. Thanks.
