Damn it! I am such an idiot. I normally only read and post from work, but I just feel the need to share this now. I don’t think this has a point, and it definitely qualifies as stuff, so I might as well post it here. And I might just develope a point along the way.
I just got back from the grocery store and may have missed a chance. I was walking down the cereal isle and spotted this girl coming up the opposite way. I don’t normally go for blondes, but there was something about this one that just seemed unbelievably attractive. We kind of eyed each other for a second, then broke off and kept walking. For those of you who have read some of my other posts, you know I have trouble just walking up to strange people like that. That, and I’ve been single for like 5 months now and it’s starting to weigh on me a little. So, I get all of my things and step into line. I’m standing there for a few minutes, then notice that she’s just stepped into line right behind me. There was a slightly faster line, but I’m not sure if she realized that or not. I turn around and smile a little and she smiled back. That was it. I froze up. I couldn’t think of anything to say. And I’m not talking about coming up with a pickup line or anything. I couldn’t even blurt out a hi or anything. I had total brain lock. Instinct propelled me through the lane, pulled out my check card, entered my PIN, and grabbed my groceries. He was also kind enough to walk them out to the car for me before I figured out just exactly what I did(or hadn’t done). Why didn’t I say anything?!
So. Did I miss a chance, or do you think she would have said something if there was a chance? I don’t know. This sucks, and I can’t quit thinking about it. Maybe writing it down like this will help me get some sleep, but I don’t know. This is just one more blown opportunity for me. God knows there have been others. This happen to anybody else recently?