This is just going to be aimless rambling as an fyi first… so if you feel like responding please do… just don’t be all buck up and learn to live with it or anything like that… I hear that from everyone else and I just want to ramble to the impersonal internet…
So… life is just so much fun… I’ve started school again and my schedule conflicts with the small place I work at lunchhours… so I’m quitting that but I feel bad for leaving them in the lurch (they’re like another family. Lemoia is both my boss and a surrogate mom) but I can’t switch my classes. And to tell the truth I don’t really want to. I like my classes how they are… if I’ve not been kicked out due to being sick the past two days… so sick I barely left the house and only then because I was dragged out so I wouldn’t be sitting at home.
Also right now I just feel so alone… some of you have probably read my thing asking for help with a relationship… well I haven’t told him. I can’t tell him. He’s too good a friend and he’s starting to hook up with a girl he was with before… things ended a bit badly last time but that’s where he is now with money he borrowed from me and will pay back tomorrow to have a drink and get a cab home later… if he doesn’t go over to her house instead. I met a couple of nice guys last night, and I had a nice time talking with them. Will I ever see them again though? I don’t know… maybe… maybe not. I never got their numbers they never got mine… just never thought of it.
I’ve been crying off and on in the past hour and barely able to see the keys… trying to decide what else to ramble about or whether or not to post this… so here goes… I guess I am posting it. -hits send before she changes her mind-