i felt like telling somebody about my friend, David, this seemed like the place to do it. Yesterday, may 15th, I got home from work and got a fone call about 10:30 pm, it was my friend Sean he told me “David’s gone, man” I was like “What?” he said “He GONE. He put a bullet in his head, and he’s gone.”
Well shit. They apparently pronounced him dead at 4:10, i dunno who found him but it seems they went looking for him when he didn’t show up for school. He was one of my best friends, he fucking tough too he held down 3 jobs while working in school, i was so impressed. he seemed to have it shit together better than anybody, but it seems that he got into a fight with his mom, was having school trouble and got fired from his job, and he apparently took his brothers shotgun ended his life. he was 17, and he killed himself. It’s so hard to believe, it makes no sense at all that he’s gone, it took a lonnng time to sink in. we went to his house today to see his family. His mom was asleep, but we talked to his brother, and read the note. And when you’re reading the note, and you hear the forensics ppl doing stuff in your friends room in the background it’s kind of hard to be in denial, it’s hard to be anything but hurt and sadness.
Well, I’m done now…see ya
ps. sorry about all the typos, i didn’t really proof read it and it won’t let me edit it either for some reason
Makes everyone stop and think about how insignificant their own problems are.
My condolences to you, I know the feeling all to well.
My condolences to you…you’re in my thoughts. I understand.
yeah, it definately does that. i appreciate your support
I’m so sorry, linolium420.
It is never easy to lose someone you love, but when they are young and have their whole life ahead of them, it is even more unbearable.
My prayers are with you, and with those who share your pain.
Scotti
thank you Scotticher
I pray for you and his family. I can’t even imagine how it feels to lose my best friend, but I would definitely find it hard.
yeah, it really blows my mind to say the least. thanks for your support tho
my condolences - there’s not much more I can say to such a sad event.
yeah, i guess not, but I appreciate it any way
One of my good friends shot himself about three years ago. It’s a terrible feeling, becuase you can’t help but wonder if there might have been something you could have done. At times I felt anger at the fact that he never reached out to me, not even to say goodbye.
Don’t be afraid to tell other people how you are feeling, trying to carry grief on your own is a huge burden.
Take care of yourself.
i know what you mean, Jesse. If I could’ve just called him it might have changed everything. I don’t blame myself, really, but I just wish I would’ve done something while I had the chance
and I think carrying grief played a big part in my friends suicide, I remember when he told me about his dad. He was 5 or 6 years old, and he walked into his dad’s room…he had life support and stuff like that cuz he had real bad lung cancer from smoking, and he walks in there and finds his dad dead. my friend started smoking when he was 6, too.
My condolences, linolium420. 
linolium420,
I can’t concieve, I love life so much. But what if it was Geo…or.Falc…or…or…or anyone.I offer you my utmost support in this time of trial. E-mail me if you wanna talk, I got 2 ears and nothing in between. I’m a good listener. hugs
Dave
I am sorry for your loss.
Oddly enough, I lost my brother in law a year ago on the 15th the same way only a handgun.
The man never made it out of vietnam. When my husband and the rest of the family went to his house to take care of things and help his son they were shocked to see all the war stuff everywhere.
Yeah, he talked about it alot, but no one ever guessed. He lived half-way across the country and I only met him on-line, but I miss him dearly.
He left no note. We will really never know why, but we have figured that he had it in mind for a while. He took his son to the funneral home the week before, and he bought more stuff than normal at the store.
A day we will never forget for two reasons. First is the obvious his date of death, and second it was his older brothers birthday.
I second Weirddave in that I am only a mouse click away if you need me. Hang in there.
Please add my deepest sympathy for you. I’m so sorry for your loss, and am here if you need to talk.
I’m so sorry about your friend. That is incredibly sad.
linolium420,
I can truly understand the shock you are going through right now, my father shot himself when I was 14 and my brother did the same in Jan. of 98. It is really one of the hardest things to bear. There are people who know what you and the other survivors of Davids suicide are feeling. Please feel free to get in touch with me and maybe I can help you find some help in your area.
It really sucks and I’m so sorry.
Darby
linolium420,
I just want to tell you how sorry I am that you have to go through this. I know how hard it is. I lost my best friend (albeit to less violent means of suicide) in August of 1995, right when he had started to get himself straightened out.
I just want to let you know that you shouldn’t let yourself get carried away with the “I should have/could have” thing. I did that for the longest time, and I didn’t sleep for 2 years because of it.
The only thing that you can do now is tell people about the good things that you remember…Find some friends, and just sit around and talk about it. Or, find a suicide survivor’s group. Being able to talk to people and get your emotions out is probably the hardest but healthiest thing to do right now.
Once again, I am so sorry. I will keep you in my thoughts.
Please feel free to email me if you need to talk more.
Skerri