Okay…yesterday, flew off the handle and began a semi-meltdown in another thread here…now, I’m just gonna bitch and say poor me, poor me!!!
First, my Mother in Law died yesterday. She was a wonderful lady that never had a bad word to say to anyone’s face…
Second of all, she always supported our military members even when she didn’t exactly agree with the reasoning behind why they were wherever they were in the first place.
Third, Even though she was extremely Catholic, she never bitched about me marrying her daughter even though I was divorced.
Fourth, which really sucks, is that it took her death to get my wife’s eldest brother to actually have a fucking conversation with me beyond, “Hi”…
Fifth, in the past eight months, (I think), I’ve lost my Mother to cancer, my favorite Uncle to general debilitation, my favorite Aunt, (his wife), to a stroke and then death after his, and My Grandmother to extreme old age.
Sixth, around about August of last year, my son, age 13 at the time, got arrested for theft and distribution of stolen property on school grounds…and then had the massive balls to tell me that he wasn’t gonna stop stealing…he now lives with my ex, his Mother…
Seventh, my eldest daughter, age 17, has already failed her senior year in high school even if she gets straight A’s and doesn’t much care…
Eighth, the company I bought my van through a couple of years ago, that my wife and I were in when we got run off the road, now want $6,000 because I apparently owed that much even after the insurance paid the rest…not to mention that my wife is no forced to wear a leg brace and use a walker as well as a wheelchair for any long trips…sigh…
Ninth…my (again) eldest daughter has now gone through her seventh or eighth pregnancy scare…
Tenth, but not least, I was pretty much forced by my brother, to sell my share of the property in northern Michigan that I had inherited from my Mother in order to get any damn thing for my kids for Xmas…as usual, the wife and I decided not to get each other anything…
In other news…
I parked my van at a mall while looking for something for one of my daughters and someone was nice enough to hit it…and on the way home, I ran over something in the road which knocked my muffler off…thankd goodness that I have AAA and they paid for THAT crap…
Oh yeah…in regard to the accident that me and the wife were in… since we were run off the road and hit a telephone pole head on (the airbags didn’t work), and there were no witnesses (it was midnight on a back road pretty much in the country), our lovely insurance company deemed it my fault.
The shuttle disaster literally makes me cry as I’ve been a space nut since I knew anything about it…I watched the Apollo landing AT school in grade school…
And I better stop now because it’s taken me about a half hour just to type this because I either keep stopping to cry more or else to go and try to fix the typos…
My mental state at this point?
“Stay focused for Beth (my wife)…try not to get sidetracked by every other fucking thing that seems to be happening all at once…”
One last thing…
Even though I’m gonna be 42 years old (woohoo…life the universe and all that shit) in June, there’s exactly one person that I can talk about all this crap comfortably to…my wife…
Yes…I know Cristi personally, I’ve mey various other dopers over the years…yet, here I am…
As always, open to ANY suggestion from my fellow teeming millions…
btw…in the next week or two, I’m gonna TRY and post what MY philosophy is…then let the so-called Liberal/Conservative posters deal with it…
But do think once in a while that as long as you’re healthy, you’ve plenty of chances to happiness in coming days/weeks/months/years.