Bless your heart. I’m sending healing prayers out to you.
So sad. Praying for you.
Sorry you’ve had to deal with this picunurse. I’m not a parent but my mom has imparted to me that losing a child is the worst possible thing that could ever happen to a parent. My thoughts are with you.
Checking in a little late. I lost a sister to suicide. I can’t agree with her actions, but I thought she was pretty damn brave to get up out of bed every day for 17 years and go out and deal with life, a job, relationships, and everything else despite her clinical depression which, regrettably, proved resistant to treatment. Calling her a coward because her illness finally ended her life is a disservice to her memory.
I suspect the same is true for your son, picunurse
It is too easy for others to judge, and too hard for them to understand. My sympathies and condolences.
Please add my sympathies in your time of troubles. Words cannot express what you must feel, over and over, with that great hole in your heart.
an seanchai
Thanks for sharing the pictures, picu. I’m glad to hear you’re doing better today.
Continued good thoughts and prayers.
GT
God bless you and your son…
so sorry.
I’m sorry that you have to go through life without your son. I wish that there was something that I can do from where I am sitting tonight, but I hope the care and support that you’re getting from the people responding to your post helps in some way to comfort you. My son is depressed and I am afraid for him.
If I could, I would come over and hug you, from one mom to another.
My thoughts go out to you, picunurse. I know that we give a part of our heart to our children when they are born and we can never hope to get it back. I can imagine how difficult milestones can be when grief has gripped you for so long. I’m so very sorry that Michael took his life, not only for what he lost, but for your loss, too.
I’m sure this has been suggested before, but I hope you’ll consider reaching out to support groups for parents of children who’ve committed suicide. Sometimes it’s a relief just knowing that other people have walked in your shoes and can understand you in ways that other people cannot.
Good luck to you. And congratulations on making it another day.
Thank you Lisa, I have participated in a support group in the past. As I said up thread, I do ok for most of the year. I’m not sure why this anniversary was harder than others, maybe because it’s a milestone; 10 years. Time dilates and contracts. This year, 10 years seemed more like 10 days.
I am better now. I’m truely grateful to everyone for your love and support.
A liitle late, but I wanted to extend my condolences to you as well. I lost my sister in 1989 to suicide.
{{{Picu}}}
My grandmother committed suicide when I was two. My mother is a very polite person, but will go off on anyone who says suicide is “weak” or “selfish.” She watched her mother struggle for years until she had one choice left - it wasn’t the “weak” or “selfish” choice - it was the choice she thought was best for her family as they, too, had been caught up in her illness.