So I just had a relationship end on me. I’m miserable. I came online to look at the dope because I can’t sleep, and it just pisses me off. Who the fuck cares about the typical “go the fuck away liberals/conservatives” threads, or the “ontological proof that my sandwich is from Mars” threads, or the “guess what fucking mass-marketed broadcast ‘artwork’ I’m going to devote my life to next year so the TV can sell me products” threads, or the “who eats their pimples (TMI)” threads, or the “Bill Clinton still sucks” threads, or the “George Bush hates democracy” threads? I mean, life is fucking going on; happiness is being found and being lost all around, and that’s the important thing. What the fuckity-fuck fuck? Let’s fucking do something instead of re-hashing the same old stupid debates time and time again. Nothing new is said. The world isn’t made a better place.
I hate the fact that I can’t sleep. I hate the fact that right now my feelings are the center of the universe. Why don’t you all fucking do something real and satisfying and productive instead of wasting time on pointless assenine ‘conversations’? Who is going to go and fucking do something instead of blabbering like the guys in Gulliver’s Travels who sat around and talked all the time without ever doing anything.
The preceding rant probably makes no sense. Basically, as I said, a relationship I had been in just fell apart, and I’m miserable. That is all.
This is how Technochick bit the dust. Really just step back from the keyboard go to sleep and then come back when you feel better. The people sit here and bullshit because that’s what they want to do even when my life is in crisis it’s enjoyable to come here and read about video games/philosophy/what have you.
I second Darkhold’s post about Techchick. That’s the first thing that popped in my head (well, second to “aw man, being dumped sucks”).
It’s easy to feel that the pain you’re currently feeling should trump all else that’s happening in the world. Your pain also acts as a natural magnifying glass, making all other issues seem frustratingly mundane and pointless.
It’s totally natural to feel that way, you just can’t let it get out of hand like Techchick did. If you really start believing that anything other than your pain is meaningless and lash at at people for daring to continue on with their lives in the midst of your suffering, when you’re finally able to climb out of that hole (and you will), there might not be anything left to climb out to.
I’ve felt the pain of getting my heart shattered, of being so hurt I was physically ill. It’s easy to start taking out that pain on the people around you but it’s never a good idea.
I’d suggest staying away from people if at all possible, until this stage has passed. People will be there for you when you can really use their company.
Good luck to you and I’m very sorry to hear about the breakup.
Eonwe, sorry about your luck dude (or dudette) but you need to take your own advice on this one. You live in Vermont, fer the love of Pete, Natures wonderland! Get out and enjoy Lake Champlain, the contemplative quiet of the NE Kingdom, just get away from your computer, your own four walls, you know, everything that sucks, and reminds you of your SO. Go outside, all things are healed in the free, clean air and under a blue sky.
sorry for your loss. at least your not bitter - kidding! Well that’s two people in the last 3 years that I have met that hail from Burlington. Not that it’s any concilation, but as a general rule, women are evil and we must be destroyed.
hoping your smirking at least. Take care man - time. time. time.
Don’t worry guys. This is not a meltdown. I am totally aware that life goes on, that not everything revolves around my pain. I just have a lot of anger/sadness right now, and (as I imagine some people have experienced) the world looks a lot more petty and pointless sometimes when you’re in pain.
Anyway, thanks for the thoughts everyone so far, and no, this isn’t a rant about the boards; it’s more a vent for my feelings which are at least mildly out of whack at the moment.
I’m sorry your relationship ended, Eonwe. It must hurt like hell. You’ll get throught it. I know that doesn’t make it hurt any less in the here and now, but it will start to hurt less gradually. That’s something to look forward to. Hang in there.
So, what happened? Was it an “incident” thing or had it been disintegrating for some time? Who was at fault? How long were you seeing each other? How much time did you spend together?
Why don’t YOU shut the fuck up and let US enjoy doing something that we all know is completely pointless?
I’m not trying to change the world here – just want to shoot the shit a little – and I don’t appreciate someone coming in and criticizing the exact thing they are using to get their piddly-ass “I just got dumped” whine on.
You must see the irony in coming here to shit your feelings out while criticizing the board for. . .well. . .whatever your stupid fuckin’ point is.
Ya know Trunk you’d have your answer if you hadn’t left off the last half of that little quote…
He’s just venting. He’s pissed off at everyone else who isn’t in as much pain as him. I’m pretty sure we’ve all felt like that after getting heartbroken. Don’t be such an ass.
No, Techchick bit the dust through a fog of depression, alcohol abuse, anger, self-entitlement and pity. This just seems to be a little post-relationship angst.
None of this matters, eh? Well, by that logic, what really does matter?!
You are born onto a rock. You die on that same rock. That rock was born out of something unknown. That rock will perish into the unknown. We, as animals of reason, are not expected to know why or how these things exsist. We can never know. Our lives are small and miniscule in the big scheme of things.
We, members of this board, choose the SD because it makes our tiny and unimportant exsistence just a tiny bit less miserable. It fills the void between life and death and seems to give us pleasure. It is our escape from reality and, to us, is one of the few things that appear to matter.
So you recently lost a lover? Many people lose lovers. Loss is part of life and apart of the void between our life and death. I know that relationship seemed to matter to you. The SD is what seems to matter to me. I know that in the grand scheme of things it really is meaningless but for the time being it is an escape from that reality.
Don’t be selfish. Accept the situation and move on. You will be happier for it.
You know, I am going to take it as a very good sign for your resilience that even when you’re hurting so badly you can toss out a phrase that makes me give a mighty snerk into my tea mug.
Hurts like hell, I know. It’ll hurt like hell long after you’re sick and tired of feeling that way. Hang in there.
It had been disintegrating for a little while now. We started seeing eachother right around New Years; she initiated things. To make a long story short, things have been a little… odd lately, and it turns out she’s decided she ‘can’t be in a relationship’ right now. She is planning to move out West at some undetermined date, and I understand her not wanting to start things here before that move, but I also feel a little betrayed, because we did talk about that fact a while back and I expressed reservations because of the move, and she wanted to try things anyway.
