Ehrmehgawd I can’t with this day. Strap in, Mumper friends, it’s been a wild ride today. Many f-bombs will be dropped. This is too much drama for my brain, and I have to put it somewhere. This isn’t the most appropriate place, so scroll ahead or clutch pearls as needed, but y’all are the only ones who know enough of my back-stories to understand:
Running on about four hour’s sleep, check the mailbox for my Amazon delivery. Yay, it has arrived.
Accompanying it, is a letter from the gov. about needing to provide biometrics, for that naturalization certificate request, at an office about an hour (each way) drive away.
As a reminder, I’m doing all this because I don’t have a fucking valid license right now. Oh, and the appointment was for a couple of days ago - that’s on me, I should’ve checked my mailbox more often - but I was at work during the scheduled appointment anyway.
Tried calling about a possible re-schedule, but because it’s a holiday, that’s a solid “nope.”
So I don’t know if my request is toast and I have to start all over, in which case, is my five hundred bucks application fee down the drain too?
Who knows? It’s not like I can get an answer!
… speaking of the holiday, my trash was picked up, so good thing I rolled it out.
Also in my mailbox was an envelope from mngmt. at my former job at the BBQ joint.
I haven’t worked there in over a year, so I open it like it might be anthrax.
I find … a check. And not a piddly one, I’m talking over two months rent.
Well, I’m still friendly with a guy who’s still a manager over there - oh, wait, don’t let me skip that extra part - so I text him asking WTF and he replied, and I quote, “Back wages, from stolen tips from former GMs.”
Now I don’t know if I went into much detail at the time - this was a bit over a year ago - but they cut our hours so badly that I couldn’t keep the wolves from my door and didn’t have fucking power for a month so once I was working ridiculous (like 8am-10pm) hours later after they re-jiggered hours for what was left of the roster, I didn’t even care, it’s not like I was ever at home anyway at that point. I just charged my phone at work; went home to get a couple hours sleep and clean socks.
Now that I’m being paid fair wages at my current (pizza) job and have tamed most of the wolves, NOW they’re paying me what I’m owed?
I’m pissed all over again at that place.
Ah, and the final mental drama on this shitshow that is my life?
… I don’t come off well here, folks, but, okay.
Keep in mind, I didn’t get to sow any wild oats in my younger days, so apparently, I’m getting some things out of my system now.
You have been warned.
So remember I was freaking out last week but being cryptic about it?
That - jeebus 22-year-old - manager I used to work with? We, ah, I believe old-timers called it “going parking” last Friday and it was entirely pre-arranged (not a “whoops, where on earth did my pants go?” thing) and while I enjoyed myself thoroughly, it made me realize how compatible Gentleman Caller is for me, on mental/emotional levels.
So I was mentally chewing on all that (and trying to figure out what to do about this, since the last time I came on kinda strong about liking G.C. a lot he freaked out and disappeared for a while, only to re-emerge months later hat in hand) when all the government and former-job stuff blew up simultaneously - technically, one might solve the other problem - but it’s just a hell of a lot to process.
… maybe I’m making a lot out of nothing. But I’m an emotional mess - goddamn this stoopit naturalization certificate thing, I am so pissed I started looking up kickboxing classes (like I have any physical energy left to burn after being on my feet for ten hours) and …
… well …
… thank you for reading if you stuck with me.
I’m not looking for advice or hugs - I understand my problems are of my own creation - but I needed to vent. And there was too much to explain in the mini-rants thread (“Wait, where do you work now?”) so I apologize for raising some Mumper eyebrows.