Today brought western Mitten State the heat & humidity, and the Oracles promise storms tonight, as well.
Ya know what’s missing?
THE COLD FRONT, DAMMIT.
I guess imma call the Chinese joint for soup and rice and meat. I’m just not feeling sushi right now, though I am glad they’re back in bizness.
I dunno. I kinda want fudz, but I mostly don’t.
This heat & hyoomidity is
and I haz a very sweaty unhappiness right now.
For whoever cares, a while back G.C. unblocked me and sent me eyeball emojis.
After stewing a while, I asked WTF does that mean?
He said, “That means you’re waiting for an answer. Or at least, I think that’s what it means?”
I let him know in no uncertain terms that 1a.) I do not think that it means what you think it means, and 2b.) maybe let’s use words to communicate?
A while later he called, we used actual words to communicate, I got the apology I wanted, and he came over to, uh, apolize in person.
Someone burned him badly in the past, and he has serious trust & commitment issues. Which, considering he was supposed to be a one night stand with me and we’re going on 2.5 years, ain’t bad.
But he assumes the worst.
I told him, I’m not paying for someone else’s mistakes, and as I barely have the time & energy for his ass, diverting any time/energy to some side piece is just not. gonna. happen.
That seemed to resonate. I was being honest; I hope it made sense.
But I will say this: when he was coming over the other night, I didn’t get a response from him, thought he’d bailed, etc. but told him my side door is unlocked & settled for the night.
He walked in and I STARTLED like a mofo, and the first words he blurted out were, “Why, is someone else here?”
Took me about a day to process ^^ but, he parked behind my car in an otherwise empty driveway, nobody else is parked anywhere nearby, and that’s still his gut reaction?
Dang.
He got hurt badly in the past. That was her; that’s not me.
He knows I lost a husband. I was clear, I bring plenty of my own baggage to this. That’s why I wanted to keep it light’n’casual.
… which could also be the name of a clothing store!
Alright, imma shut up & go fetch some sort of fud.