The break-up doesn’t trouble me. Our relationship had lots of great aspects, but I realized early on that it was not headed in the right direction. Actually, I was about to leave her, and had been thinking how I was going to tell her, when we broke up.
What is difficult is the questions that will forever be unaswered. So many inconsistencies, contradictions, lies, half-truths and secrets about her past, about the nature of our relationship and of her feelings for me. After two and a half years living together, I have no idea who she really was, and what she really wanted. All I know for sure are the 2 lines I wrote above.
I use “dozens” for any unspecified number over 23 but below 200. Perhaps I should have said 16 dozens ? I guess that would have been in the ballpark. But oddly specific. And technically, it would still be “dozens” anyway.