I need to say this somewhere where I don’t know everyone - so SDMB - I will say it here.
I am currently reading a book by a friend, this is his third part of his autobiography and the point at which our lives intersected. Normally to find my name in print, would be far more flattering, but despite the fact it is never brought up by the author, there are three points at which regret has stabbed my heart.
So on the bus, in tears as I read the first few pages of the third section of this book, I decided to write an email to him and his wife who once was a friend who I greatly looked up to, and cared for deeply.
I had made mistakes, I knew it, and I am sure they know it too, but I had to confess my failing them, and I let the email sit as a draft for as long as I could - then hit send.
Now I am just waiting - they don’t need to reply, I didn’t need to write it for I am sure they knew, but I needed to say what I said - and his book had given me the chance to say I am sorry.
I’m sure I have no idea how this made it to the second page without a reply. This community is usually pretty quick to either offer support or a good smack in the face when it is warranted.
Best I can do is bump and say, good on ya for trying to make amends. Even if what you did put you so far beyond redemption as far as these people you speak of are concerned, at least you tried to make it right. Now if they give you the opportunity to make things right, do NOT forget the follow through. You may be given a second chance with friends. Do NOT bitch it up.
