Oh my. Oh my oh my oh my.
For most people this is probably pretty mundane and pointless, but damn, I’ve got to share!
There’s someone interested in me.
I’ll spare you all the details, but suffice to say, I’ve gotten some pretty direct signals that a very funny, very beautiful, very nice woman/girl (when you’re 22 it’s hard to know which word to use) I know is interested in me. I’m usually pretty bad at picking up on signals, whether because I lack the self-confidence/arrogance to think that everybody must be interested in me or because I’m just used to being “the friend,” I don’t know, but I’d have to be pretty daft not to realise what’s going on now.
I feel… I don’t know. I don’t know if/how I’m going to respond to this. This person is moving to NYC in about two months, and I’m pretty sure I’m not interested in any long-distance relationship. But, it feels so so so wonderful to know that there’s the posibility for something. Somebody wants me! Yeah! I’m giddy as a school girl (tee hee) and I’m sure I’ve got a goofy grin on my face at the moment.
Maybe… damn, I don’t know! I’m pretty timid when it comes to instigating a relationship, but maybe this is something that needs to happen, even if it is only for a few months. Not that I derive my self-worth from what other people think of me, but have you ever felt like you’ve been lifted up about thirty feet above everything else when someone glanced your way? I’m on cloud nine, I really am. I’m not going to be able to see this person for three or four days, so I’ve got that long to stew in my own nervousness/happiness, and to figure out what the hell I’m going to say or do when I do see her again. I’m wonderfully lost; I just hope I’ve got the wherewithall to do the right thing.
Thanks, I’m going to go melt into a pile of gooy joy in the corner now. Carry on.


