So. That happened.

Sure has been a while! Last time I saw the boards, they were the temp boards with the hideous smilies. ::shudder::

So, I had a nervous breakdown! Honest to goodness. Ended up not leaving my house for a week around the beginning of March; stopped going to work, quit smoking cuz I was afraid to leave the house to go get some when I ran out.

Anyway, I ended up in the ER, diagnosed with panic disorder and agoraphobia. (Agoraphobia, stemming from the fact I was afraid to leave the house cuz “what if I have a panic attack and there’s no one to help me and oh my God I’d die and blah blah blah…”) Since then, I’ve been at my parents, recouping. I kind of self-imposed Internet avoidance therapy on myself… I figured part of my problem was that it was easier for me to stay inside and live in my own little virtual world rather than deal with the real world. Panic attacks 24/7 for a few weeks are a good wake up call, telling you “deal with your issues!”

So I’m ok. I quit my job, which was depressing the hell out of me, and am looking for work again. Some of you may recall I had taken a job in NYC and was moving there… that’s not happening now. It’s not the best time for that. Maybe soon I’ll be ready for that, but right now, I’m sticking local.

That’s my story. I’ve missed the boards and the friends I’ve made here, and plan to be around a bit more, now that I’ve kind of gotten a grip and am taking steps to get better. Good to see y’all again.

But you’re not going to leave us again, right?

Just making sure.

Happy to have you back. :slight_smile:

Welcome back, Rasa. You still have the coolest pants ever. (NY Dopefest pics)

Hi Rasa! :slight_smile:

Aww, I didn’t really leave, lno… and Spanky the Wonder Monkey says hi, by the way.

I never knew those pants were so cool, thanks Ana! And hi monster right back atcha.

Aw, give Spanky the Wonder Monkey a hug for me.

Spanky the Wonder Dog, however, still waits for you to bring his monkeybrother to him so he can lick your face.

Glad yer back, Rasa. I’d been wondering where you’d gotten off to.

-Tygr, who lives in the Bible Belt where Spank-ee the Monkee is still illegal.

Welcome back!

:smiley: :smiley: :smiley: :smiley: :smiley: :smiley: :smiley: RASA IS BACK!!! :smiley: :smiley: :smiley: :smiley: :smiley: :smiley: :smiley:

Can you tell I’m happy you’re here?

Heh, I wonder where I’d gotten off to too, Tygr :wink:

And a re-hello to the poster formerly known as mattk…

And pez, darling… are those smilies in your pocket or are you happy to see me?



My dear, we must have a long talk in the near future. :slight_smile:

Lil’ bit of both :wink:

I’ve missed you so danged much, Katie Tomatie. Sporadic updating in your LJ isn’t enough. I DEMAND EMAIL.

Oh, and come live with us and help me paint and garden. That is all.

hey rasa!! i wondered where you were.

welcome home.

Hi Rasa. Missed you.

Heehee, I forgot I started this thread! See what happens when you break a habit?

It’s nice to be welcomed back. :smiley:

Rasa darling, it appears we still have that old “mind meld” thingie going on. I was driving to work this morning, about 9:45AM your time, and all of a sudden you appeared in my mind.

MyMind: Hey, I haven’t seen Rasa around lately. Where is she?

MyOtherMind: How should I know? You know we both read out of our collective mind, if YOU haven’t seen her, why should you think that I have seen her?

MM: You are such a sarcastic piece of work. I was just feeling the loss of her presence, and you don’t have to be such a witch.

MOM:Well, aren’t WE bitchy this morning? Just email the sweetie when we get home and tell her we were thinking about her and sending her warm and loving thoughts.

MM:Well, at least I get to do SOME of the fun things around here.

So, from our collective mind and heart…I miss you, honeylove, and I am glad you are doing better. You are often in my prayers.

Much Love,


{{Rasa}} Good to see you back! Are you Rasa on LiveJournal? I’m on there now and I’m collecting for my friends list.

Good karma and warm thoughts sent your way.

Actually, on LiveJournal I’m ramavina. Some 14 year old in Minnesota or something took the name Rasa!

I have to say, that person has SOME GALL!