I am having a really hard time with a few things.
- I constantly compare myself to others (think I am a failure, etc), think I am less because I make less, and cannot focus on the now (even in a really nice situation my mind might worry/stray off and think about other things).
It’s to the point where I quit a bad job because I was going nuts comparing my friend’s positive work experience to my “just a job,” and when I got a better one, I still compare, finding anything better about what they’re doing. It’s sick, I know it, and I constantly try to fight it by reminding myself of the logic and the positive things in my life, but I can tell it’s still there, waiting for me to hear something really positive for someone else that for some reason makes me question what I’m doing with my life, my capabilities, etc.
- I have a problem living in the now. I constantly am aware of time and stress out that I only have 4 hours before bed, then work, etc (the weekend’s the same, I stress if it’s already Saturday, etc). If I cannot be with the person I love for extended periods of time I stress-time is too big of an issue…why I know it should not matter.
Any advice? Should I go see a counselor? Can I be helped? Are there things I can do daily to help with this stuff?