I will be all right. I will.I have been through worse, I have gotten by on WAY less money that I will have to over the next couple of months.
Its just that I was really flush for a few months, and I liked it, I really can manage on a shoestring, but I enjoyed taking the kids out to movies and stuff. I will just have to suck it up for while.
My dad really came through today…fixed my car all up, its running great now, and he spoke to my landlord too.
Do not go gentle into that good night
Old age should burn and rave at close of day;
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.
Though wise men at their end know dark is right,
Because their words had forked no lightning they
Do not go gentle into that good night.
Good men, the last wave by, crying how bright
Their frail deeds might have danced in a green bay,
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.
Wild men who caught and sang the sun in flight,
And learn, too late, they grieved it on its way,
Do not go gentle into that good night.
Grave men, near death, who see with blinding sight
Blind eyes could blaze like meteors and be gay,
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.
And you, my father, there on the sad height,
Curse, bless, me now with your fierce tears, I pray.
Do not go gentle into that good night.
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.
You are stronger than you know, Kelli. You are more loved and more valued and more needed than you will ever comprehend. Suicide is only a question, not an answer.
It will get better. It will be worth it. You will be happy again.
I have been so wrapped up in my own postings I didn’t see yours…
I hope you are feeling better tonight. I have been in the shits a lot lately too.
Dad’s are wonderful, they do really come through when the shit’s hit the fan.
Keep your kids close to you over the next few days. You know that you have to be here for them until your are old and gray.
Be strong in that you were able to turn to the boards to help you through a difficult situation, it means you have a lot of fight in you.
Be confident that some supreme being, the universe or whatever is testing, not trying you. Your strength will follow you through this situation to make you stronger for hopefully less trying times.
This world is freaking scary, I sometimes hide in my house and curl in a ball. Maybe you need to do that for a few hours. Have a friend take the kids for a romp in the park while you crank the music loud and dance around the house in frustration, or curl up in your bed and read a book, or go on your own jaunt through some wooded area. Whatever you need to do to be you.
Hey, sometimes a scream from the guts of your soul is the best thing you can do…just don’t do it around the kids
BTW…my real name is Liz…if you need a chat, post it and I will email you back.
…and to what should my wandering eyes should appear but a thread from my best pal her life in arrears…
babe, I always have choc mint cookiesand tea… hang in there!
stands on the street corner with a sign that says: JUMP!
What the hell is up with that “troll” label? If someone on here says something that pisses you off y’all label them a “troll”. It’s funny though, someone actually thinks their opinion of me matters. lol!
And #2… Men have no business trying to raise kids alone either. Men are to strict and women too lenient. I have to admit though, women are better parents, it’s just almost impossible for a single mom to do it alone. And to those men that abandon their kids, you are the scum of the earth.
btw- I was raised by a mother that had to raise 5 kids alone. I guess that makes me a poster child for the “parents should stay together club” and a fine example of what happens when a mother has to raise kids alone. That’s ok though, my dog loves me. :-p
The ever insensitive, politically incorrect PitBullDawg. Political correctness is a disease. Cure it with the truth.
Hi Kelli! I feel like a schmuck. I just now read this.
I’ve been where you’re at. I’m sort of still there, living check to check, crossing my fingers and hoping some sort of Y2K glitch will keep a few checks from hitting my account until I get paid again. I’ve also been so depressed and suicidal that I checked myself into a hospital, as a result of some dumb shit I let a man get away with.
I tried to kill myself once. OD. My mom found me, and the paramedics came, and saved my life. I’ve decided that living sucks sometimes, but dying sucks forever. So I’ll live. And I’ll actively seek things that make me happy. Sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn’t, and sometimes I have to go talk to a psychologist.
As for dads, yeah, they really can come through for you, can’t they? Mine is currently selling me a van for $500, and he’s going to take payments of $50 a month. Now we have 2 cars. My dad gave me my independence back for Christmas.
Now go read the Guy Stuff thread for a quick giggle, and get on with living. Email me anytime you want, okay? Love ya!
I’ve been through this - but, I was the child. My Mother raised my little sister and I on a shoestring. We lived in a dump for a while. We didn’t have a phone for almost a year. We never knew if the electricity would be on when we got home. We sometimes went for weeks without enough money to get oil for the furnace delivered. My Mom was quite weak beforehand - this made her very strong. It made me grow up fast - I had responsibility for taking care of my little sister after school (a seven year old is kinda hard for a thirteen year old to control), making dinner - that kind of stuff. But, something good came out of all of it - My Mom and I have the most incredible bond. We are confidants and friends as well as parent/child. I could not begin to explain what we feel for each other - oh, yea, we do drive each other nuts now and then, we have our arguments, but NOTHING can break that bond. I can tell her absolutely anything and she tells me everything (how many people can say that about their Mother?). You have that to look forward to - an unbreakable bond of love and trust with your boys.
I have more to say, but I have to run - time to poof my hair and perfume various parts - it’s New Year’s Eve, ya know.
PS Happy New Year to you and your boys, Kelli. Remember, tomorrow is a fresh new start - new year, new decade, new century, new millennium (I know, I know - but I’m taking the safe route - I’m partying twice!)
We all love you, Kelli. That doesn’t change. But circumstances do. This mess will dry up; like water spilled on your shirt. The shirt is uncomfortable when it’s soaking wet, but it dries , love. Things will change, & for the better. E-mail me if you need me.
“Show me a sane man, and I will cure him for you.”----Jung
Kelli, Celine Dion has announced her plans to retire from show business after January 1st. If that doesn’t give you hope for a brighter tomorrow, what could?
Sorry, I just now read this. (I need to keep a closer eye on you people.) I wish I could say I’ve been there, but I’d be lying. Even though I’m a borderline depressive, offing myself just never seemed like an option. Warning, incoming cliche…
As long as there is life, there is hope.
There, I’ve got that out of my system. Trite, but I think it pretty much sums up my philosophy of life. That, and the fact that I’m always curious to see how things are going to come out. Life is a story, and if you close the book too early, a happy ending is impossible. Stick with it. There could be a “happily ever after” later on.
If she is retiring, i just know things are getting better!
I do have good news…the furnace guy told mr. landlord today the furnace MUST go, and the new forced air(electric) one is sitting in my kitchen as I type. I dont have to move, and my kids wont get sick
Shitboy phoned and I tore a srtip off his sorry ass…I told him if I had to force him in court to pay half the daycare, I would do it, and that the courts will re-evaluate his wages at that time, and he will end up paying more. I told him he was a jerk for ‘fleeing the province to avoid paying a few bucks’. He asked if I felt he wasnt entitled to a ‘life’…whatever He is the stinkiest piece of shit I have ever met…he moved to Bumfuck Manitoba to a town even the Eskimos wont visit to shack up with some old truck-slut he just met. For this he leaves behind two little boys. Dick.
I said, after frankie began to cry after speaking with him," Well, its always a pleasure, gotta go" he wished me a happy new year, I said “thanks, good bye.”
I am warmly ensconced at Angkins for the night. And I am doing tons better than yesterday. I got some emails I have yet to return, but until then, Thank you.
Happy new year to all, and to all a good …whatever.
ps, Satan, I will be there by Tuesday, drink plenty of fluids!!
Kelli,we all love you! (satan,that was really funny,and brave!) Kell,look in the paper,you can find some good,inexpensive child care. My former sitter charged 1.50 an hour! See ya next year!
First, I’m so sorry I just got around to reading this thread.
Check this out, it may make you feel better, or at least give you a chance to let the world know what a … well shitboy, shitboy really is ! http://disgruntledhousewife.com/dick/indexhtml
I hope that worked !
Ayesha - Lioness
There are two solutions to every problem : the wrong one, and mine
(Thomas A. Edison)
