I screwed up, as usual.
http://www.disgruntledhousewife.com/dick/indexhtml
Lets see if I got it right this time.
Ayesha - Lioness
There are two solutions to every problem : the wrong one, and mine
(Thomas A. Edison)
last try at this darn thing.
http://www.disgruntledhousewife.com/dick/index html
Lets see if I got it right this time, if not I give up.
Ayesha - Lioness
There are two solutions to every problem : the wrong one, and mine
(Thomas A. Edison)
I quit, I don’t know what I’m doing wrong here.
Ayesha - Lioness
There are two solutions to every problem : the wrong one, and mine
(Thomas A. Edison)
Only because I love you Ayesha:
http://www.disgruntledhousewife.com/dick/index.html
p.s. yoou haven’t sumbitted me to the list. pity.
The ever insensitive, politically incorrect PitBullDawg.
Political correctness is a disease. Cure it with the truth.
Well ______ me naked and hide my clothes,
he knows how to raise male children, use the search engine AND fix my posted links, will wonders never cease?
Oh the only reasons I didn’t list you is
- for that list you gotta have one to be one
and - I didn’t know your real name.
Thank you, but please, after what you posted to Kelli earlier on this thread, don’t do me any favors.
IMHO , you are an insinstive jerk. Someone is going through hell and reaches out and you answer with that ? I have decided that you aren’t worth my time .
Ayesha - Lioness
There are two solutions to every problem : the wrong one, and mine
(Thomas A. Edison)
Kelli, glad to see things are looking up. You know that anytime you feel, you can mosey on into the chatroom with the rest of us addicts :). Anyway, glad to see yer still around…
Ayesha: I haven’t followed the whole shitboy legend, so you have to give us a name to look up
sunbear,
Shitboy is Kelli’s ex, she’ll have to fill you in.
Ayesha - Lioness
There are two solutions to every problem : the wrong one, and mine
(Thomas A. Edison)
Say, is Shitboy and relation to Guanolad? 
Mr. K’s Link of the Month:
Landlord: By law, your land lord is required to provide you with a fit dwelling. If he refuses to fix the furnace, you can withhold rent, and if he tries to evict you, you can lodge a protest and get a stay or have the eviction process annulled. You can also find a ‘free’ lawyer form legal aide to help you in this.
You can also file a request for continuation of assistance with your child care funds, especially if they come from the State you live in. Write to your governor and your representatives, but use real mail. Others have said that such folks rarely respond to E-mail and I found out that is true. Be graphic. Be descriptive and tell them how it is. Target female congress people for the empathy effect.
Check with Social Services for further assistance and the EOC (Economic Opportunity Council). They sometimes will pay a power bill or two or help you with your rent. IF depression is hitting you hard, go to the local free mental health clinic and sign up for therapy. They charge you according to what you can pay. (Your public health center will know where it is.)
Good luck.
Just a couple of things, the maybe we can just let this puppy go to the bottom.
I have a good job, and with the Child support that I get, added to my commissions, it bumps me into a high enough income bracket to disqualify me for daycare assistance. I make ok money, thats actually the proble right now, but As the new year begins, I am changing my commission structure to quarterly, so it will only disqualify me 4X per year, I wont get a full subsidy, but even $5 per kid is a big help.
I have a university education, and in addition, I am certified by the province I live in to care for children. I have made some bad choices…so? ( I am trying to dispell any questions that may have arisen from the new troll, who seems to be on every thread) I actually think he has a crush on me, pulling my pigtails the whole bit.
I am prone to depression, but that wasnt what got me this time, as i am ok now, and with the depression, it doesnt go away like that.
This was an anxiety problem. The anxiety attacks started when I found out my mother is dying from cancer. They were a daily thing for a while, and then I had none for a while, until after Xmas. A hard time to be sure, when everything reminds you that this will in all likelyhood be her last.
I guess after the ‘last straw’ the other day, you all got to se the anxiety-ridden version of an adult tantrum. A total explosion of shit from within.
But its over. I am fine, and to all of you who were so kind, it truly elped. I knew if I asked, I would get the encouragement that I couldnt muster from within.
And to that out there who wasnt, if you think anything you say to me matters in the slightest…get over yourself. In continuing to bait me, you demonstrate to all on the board what an incredibly worthless jerk you are. Dawwgshit says:“I takes care of ma kids!” (picturing guest on Springer) Yeah, we are sure you do.
To Cess…oh MY GOD! thanks for all the virtual flowers girl!
I DON’t know how you feel Kelli. All my life I’ve kept the boy inside and day dreamed of better things to come, and you know what…they actually do. It’s a matter of re programming habits and thought patterns. As you think so you are (something like that) You can start by not watching the news and reading very selective media. There is a very real link bwtween peoples perception of the world and their self-image, so don’t let the doomsayers bring you down.
Break the cycle Kelli,or your kids will will get caught up too. These are not my ideas but my experiance, there is plenty of positive liturature from the mouths of American publicists, so take advantage of it Now!
Jim Carey was on MSNBC yesterday talking about how he and his family were homeless for awhile after his father lost his job. He wasn’t at all bitter. In fact, you could see how proud he was of his parents. Shit happens. It’s how you deal with it that’s important.
You are teaching your children great lessons. And one day you’ll all look back fondly on that 20 year old car.
Or maybe not. 
The key is that your kids can count on you and YOU never bailed on them.
Peace, health and happiness to you in 2000.
Kel - I know that in the past we haven’t been the best of friends. I also know that anything I write will be interpreted in a different light than if the same words were written by someone a little “nicer” (although “nice” is all in the eyes of the beholder, now isn’t it? :))
I am not going to skimp on words or try to sweeten up my post. In my job as a counselor, I have learned that sometimes it is better to be blunt than to sugar coat. I am making the decision to play devils advocate and risk the spanking by the Sunshine Gang. (Just kidding folks, hold the punches.)
If you take this as an attack, so be it, although it is not intended to be one.
If you truly felt as low and suicidal as your OP appeared, then for Godsake, shove yourself away from the computer and go speak to someone. Message board friends, no matter how sincere, are no replacement for human to human contact nor are they qualified to give you professional counseling.
Sure, it feels good to have someone listen to your problems and be a sounding board, that’s what friends are for. I am in no way diminishing the value of online friendships, but if your mental state is as severe as you made it out to be, then you should really look for help from a professional as well as friends who can be with you.
Granted, deep friendships are made online, but seriously, would any one of you under the condition that you have never met in person, donate a kidney to another SDMB member or online friend? Would any of you loan $1000.00 without anything but their word? $500? $100? Shit - $10? Would you designate an online friend, no matter how deep the friendship, as guardian of your children if you should die?
Now answer these same questions but replace online friend with someone you share a deep and trusted friendship in real life.
See my point?
No matter how much we share with each another online, no one truly knows one another outside of the things we type. We don’t see into a person’s life like we do in real life friendships, no matter how open we are with each other.
I have noticed in the past that you seem to have many personal problems. It is one thing to vent - hell, I am just as guilty of it - but it is another to solely depend on the SDMB for your mental health. Make sure you are able to tell the two apart.
FWIIW - Good luck to you.
>^,^<
KITTEN
Fluff yer hair Beula, I’s feelin frisky - M.S.
I couldnt kill myself. No matter how bad things ever get, I couldnt do it. The boys…who would end up with them? Not to say I dont occasionally fantasize about faking my own death and heading somewhere warm…
The ledge I spoke of was not a physical one, but a mental one. Like when you have to force yourself not to crawl under the bed and curl into a ball. The kind of place where if you dont hold on, the blackness will swallow you up and dead or alive, you will never be the same. Breakdown? Just overwhelmed? I dunno.
I think one of the things which helped the most was wallys description of his own despair…I cant explain why, but it made the world of difference.
My ‘real life’ friends couldnt do that…I already know all their stories, and I needed something else. fresh perspective if you will.
Funny thing is, I though about you a great deal Diane. You have beaten many obstacles, and I admire you a great deal (you’re still a bitch :))
I understand your advice…and you are right. But my internet friends are not my whole life, and in this diverse place, sometimes I can find what I need.
" I’m not crazy! I’m not crazy! I’m NOT CRAZY!!" -
Kellibelli upon hearing her furnace was indeed broken, the smell WAS NOT her imagination.