To sister, died 1-19-2006, accidental psychiatric medication overdose

Miscellaneous and Personal Stuff I Must Share
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I’m sorry about “one day”

I guess what they say is true:
Shit happens.
Sometimes it shouldn’t, though.
I thought I would say some things that
I was going to say to you “one day.”

Maybe “one day” is something we say
To justify the things we know we
Really should do but don’t want to
Because it is too hard. Well, I guess
We all learned that “one day” doesn’t
Mean shit after the fact. Now is
After the fact.

Don’t be mad at Mom. She loved you
To a fault. You two were a lot
The same, and you both had that passion
To be reckoned with.

Don’t be mad at your Dad-
He did a lot of shit but he
Really did love you. Thats why
Mom wouldn’t tell you some of the
Things she wanted to. She knew
At times that he was all you
Had, and she didn’t want to take it
Away from you. She was afraid of him
But more afraid of that.

Here is a list of some of the
Things I am sorry about.

I am sorry that you weren’t more
Happy that you deserved to be. You
Deserved much more than what you
Got.

I am sorry that you and Mom
Didn’t get it worked out. You know
She didn’t get along with Grandma
Until she was about 35, and
That was what I was waiting for,
All of us were waiting for.

I am sorry about the miscarrage. That
Is a pain that most will never
Fathom to understand, you were going to
Be a great mother. I know this
Because you were a great deal like
Mom, and she was. I am sorry you
Weren’t fortunate enough to know that.

I am sorry we won’t have that
First beer together.

I am sorry we won’t dance at
My wedding.

I am sorry you won’t get to
See our brother’s children become
Men.

I am sorry you never heard any
Of my music. You inspired some
Of it.

I am sorry you won’t be around to
Laugh with Dwen and I as we
Get old and fat, and our
Bodies fall apart with the reckless
Humor that only time has.

I am sorry you won’t get to meet my
Friends. They have seen me at the edge,
And were able to coax me back.

I am sorry we weren’t there enough.
I wanted to, but I was afraid.

I am sorry for being scared.

Love,

Danny

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That’s a beautiful tribute, I’m very sorry for your loss.

3

I am so sorry for your loss.

4

She was so pretty, you have no idea.

She was going to be a model for this agency, but she was too short (4’11’’) that the camera angles didn’t look right. They really tried.

You ever seen Forest Gump? You know when he is talking about Jenny and when she was throwing the stones at her father’s house? He says something profound that I never got until I saw that movie two days after her funeral:

Sometimes, there aren’t enough rocks.

Or something to that effect. But it is very true, sometimes there is nobody to be mad at. That is the greatest tragedy of all, nobody to blame.

5

Nothing profound to add here, but I’m sorry you lost her. I can’t imagine how difficult it would be to lose a sibling. :frowning:

6

I am sorry for your loss. Sending supporting thoughts your way.

7

I’m so sorry for your loss.

8

I’m so very sorry for your loss.

9

Translucent Daydream–I’m very sorry for your troubles. :frowning:

10

I’m so sorry.

11

Translucent Daydream, you have my deepest sympathy. Your words hit very close to home. Too close. I hope that you find some peace.

12

I am sorry about your sister’s death. Sounds like she was a person worth knowing.

13

My condolences on your loss. Your poem is extremely moving.

14

I am so very sorry for your loss. Your tribute to your sister is incredibly touching. Thank you for sharing something so personal.

15

I’m so sorry, Danny. Truly.

16

So sorry. {{{Translucent Daydream}}}

17

Beautiful tribute to your sister. To be loved like that is a magical thing.

You have my deepest condolences Danny.

Anna

18

Translucent Daydream
Thank you for sharing your beautiful tribute; I am very sorry for your loss.

19

I am so sorry for your loss. Your sister was lucky to have a brother like you. I hope it helped you to write that lovely, moving poem.

20

What a beautiful and caring note you have written to her. Your sister was lucky to have you as a brother. I’m very sorry for your family’s loss.