<begin whiny, long self-aborbed rant>
Maybe writing this all out will help. It’s a little multi-layered rant, pretty much coming from a number of directions.
I’m pissed because I’ve been trying repeatedly to get a second job, this one more related to my field/major. I’m getting pretty much nowhere. I currently work in the community I live in on campus, but this job doesn’t pay a whole lot. Considering I was working all summer with 40 hours a week at $20 an hour as an intern, I miss that job and the pay. I’m also pretty damn scared that I won’t be able to afford next semester’s bill, and I’ve been striving to avoid loans as much as possible for the duration of my college years. (Haven’t hit any yet, and I know that’s a blessing or good luck, if you will). But I’m fucking frustrated, and the type that gets anxious and worried about it. I got out of the one job I’ve mentioned numerous times that wasn’t paying shit, but haven’t found anything else, and I’m fearful I won’t be able to afford Christmas presents and the next semester bill.
Next part: I’m goddamn sick of my roommate being here with her boyfriend. They don’t pay for the housing, either, based on their jobs with the university. She and her boyfriend have been here all summer, got used to it (just heard that my twin-sized bed had been pushed up with her’s over the summer to “make it more comfortable” for them to sleep on). I was moved against my will right before the semester started anyway–tried to work with the assignments office to explain that I wanted to be somewhere where someone was NOT there the entire summer, but they were less than helpful). Roommate and her bf are here almost constantly, despite classes and the fact that he has her same job in another community. I’ve talked to my RA about this, but I’m stuck waiting, and I may or may not be able to switch apartments. My ideal would be a single apartment, but I may be SOL. I am fucking sick of hearing their damn xbox blaring. It’s even worse because I’m in an LDR, and they’re virtually a married couple. Just isn’t something you want to see every day, you know? And he’s here pretty much every night. It’s awkward in the mornings. Too bad there isn’t an option for couples to live together on campus, unless they’re married. Their whole relationship basically blocks my ability to form a friendship with my roommate. They’re both really nice too, but God it’s aggravating and I want my own space. I feel like if I tried to confront my roommate, she’d just get defensive. Because, for fuck’s sake, they’ve been there the entire goddamn summer. The apartment entirely to themselves…
Third thing: I think “ok, shopping would be a good idea, get out of the apartment, etc.” I take the bus out to the lovely three-mile-away lot where my car is parked yesterday. Turn car on. Car starts, but before I leave the lot the battery light turns on and the glow plug light starts flashing. Eeep. I get back on the damn bus back to campus after deciding it isn’t the best thing to drive. There’s a home football game today, but I catch the bus and try to get to the store to at least shop a little. Of course it’s raining, and campus is pure hell because the buses that are running are choked by all the people. Not fun.
I’m so stressed right now that I can barely feel cheerful. I just want some goddamn answers and to not have to deal with the obnoxious-ness that is having a third roommate when I only signed up for one.
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