Gods, I’m just so damn TIRED of being sad. :mad:
Two weeks today since I went in for a 9-week ultrasound and found out my twins had died at 7 weeks. A week and a half since I went in for the D&C. And I’m still crying randomly. :smack:
I know it’s partly psychological and partly biochemical. I’m just sick of it. I want to be able to move on, I want to be able to accept that I won’t have children-of-the-body and discuss rationally with Husband the idea of adoption (which might not even be an option, depending) or remaining a family-of-two. But I can’t do that yet, because I am not yet a rational person who can discuss the issue without crying. :rolleyes:
So how long do I have to put up with this? When will I be normal again? I would very much like to be able to mark it on my calendar, and that way I can look forward to that date and know how much more crap I have to deal with. Right now I have good days and bad days and days when I don’t really feel sad but I notice myself acting like a sad person, which is frustrating.
Gaaaaah! Emotions are STUPID!!!
Note: I know that I won’t actually be able to put a date on the calendar and cross off days. But it would be very nice if that were possible.