What do you hate about yourself?

In My Humble Opinion
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  1. I’m disorganized and lose stuff all the time.

  2. I don’t know half as much as I should or want. And it seems like no matter how interested in a subject I am, I still can’t learn enough about it for me to feel confident to claim expertise.

  3. I’m clumsy and lack grace.

  4. I’m weird, especially around other people.

  5. I lack passion. I like doing a lot of things, but I have a hard time naming something I love doing. I am boring when compared to other people.

  6. I stutter and stammer. Not all the time, but enough for me to be self-conscious.

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Chronic depression.

People who don’t have it have no idea what it’s like. It’s like going through life tied down to a wheelchair, with very heavy weights. I know I’m perfectly able to walk, even fly, but getting out of that chair would require superhuman strength, which I can muster up only occasionally. And the world is not wheelchair-accessible.

Actually, it’s amazing that I function (sometimes even flourish) as well as I do, but I can’t help thinking how different my life would be if I could get rid of the depression. There’s nothing wrong with me “psychologically” - I’ve got a healthy self-esteem, love the work I do, and have a loving partner. It’s something chemical and runs in the family, and I’ve never found a medication that has more than a temporary effect.

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I’m very very shy in social situations where I don’t know anyone (yeah, i’m sure some other people are like that too, but I envy the type of people who can just come into a room where they’ve never seen anyone else before and have a lot of confidence). Sometimes I think I’m too concerned with what other people are thinking about me and should just let go and relax more. But on the other hand, I’m very perceptive and empathic towards others, so I think that’s a good quality.

Around family and friends who I know well, though, I’m not shy in the least.

I have a very hard time falling asleep out of my house. I get that thing where you start thinking too much about falling asleep, and then you get all nervous about it and it makes it even harder to fall asleep. So I usually have to use dramamine (sp?) when I go away.