+1 to not airing your inner thoughts and feelings here or any other forum. I’ve suffered from depression almost all my life and I’ve shared my experiences here and other forums, and while I’ve gotten some helpful and thoughtful input, there’s always someone who is trying to be funny, sarcastic or a troll that may bring you even more down. I left this forum for a few months because I getting too serious about some of the topics and realized I had to step away for a while.
If you have a significant other, talk to him or her about your feelings. If they’re close to you, they’ve probably noticed your low moments and just haven’t brought it up with you. If you attend a church or other group organization, you might bring it up in casual conversation, something like: “Do you ever find yourself sad for no reason? How do you get out of your funk” You’ll be surprised at how many people can relate.
Check if your health insurance or workplace has mental health services. Most large employers have a free/anonymous helpline that can call to just talk. Don’t be ashamed or afraid to seek mental help care. I went to therapy for anger management years ago and one of the most powerful things I learned about myself was that I’m borderline obsessive / compulsive and because of that awareness I temper myself when I find I’ve going to far with anything (which is what I was doing on this forum a while back).
Also just exercise and just just getting out of the house a try. Sometimes just getting a breath of fresh air and sunshine can help. Or start a hobby that will occupy your mind and body. I believe the saying ““An idle mind is the devil’s workshop” is true. Keep busy in mind, spirit and body and you’ll have less time to dwell on the negative.