I really like my coworkers at my present job. One reason is because every one of them have a background that helps reinforce my own goals. What I mean is that they all are either currently aspiring for something better, or are already very accomplished people just trying to make a living (a few people who worked in the tech sector before the dot-com bust).
I wish I could look at it as a positive thing all the time. Usually I do. But sometimes when I’m feeling down on myself the very aspect that motivates me can depress me as well. Its really weird- the people around me help me to realize that I can aspire for something better as well, but when I am feeling insecure for whatever reason it seems to have the opposite effect: I feel like I’m the only person there not doing anything with my life.
This afternoon I have an appointment with my college advisor about getting into the credential program at SJSU. I am excited about the prospect, but also impatient, since right now I feel like being a teacher is still a pipe dream in my head. Maybe when I’m halfway through the credential program I’ll be a lot more confident about where I’m going with my life, but right now I still feel like I’m in career limbo.