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But for me, half of the time I feel sad because he lost his way and the other half of the time I feel sad because I was a sucker to fall for it the first time.
I don’t know if I’d be happier thinking that he was always a jerk or thinking that this political season just got the better of him.
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I think the real tragedy–that extends far beyond McCain–is that perhaps “the way” has possibly eroded into a swamp. There’s no new greed or wickedness under the sun, I think. People–a few weird, flukishly good, the vast majority pf sincere, muddled herds persuadable either way, and a few flat-out cheerfully evil–have always muddled along in a messy pile. Even clinging to truisms doesn’t help much.
I think vanishingly few humans really see “the way”, any way, through the distortions and deliberate lies du jour. Sorting through endless tangled layers of opportunistic bullshit surely exacts an enormous toll in time, not to mention belief. John McCain, reluctant son of admirals, was born into the game but that’s a far cry from being the mind and will moving pieces vs. one being played. If he’s a victim, he’s a willing one.
By now I’m not sure John McCain–or his followers–deserve either sympathy or respect for the simple reason they’ve shown none. This isn’t about Democrats or Greens or Libertarians. Every “ism” will descend into genuinely nasty, hypocritical behavior, given half a chance and enough convenient opportunism. What Rove, Bush, Cheney, et. al. have done to the world and American politics in the past decade hasn’t been slightly-evolving-tactics-as-usual. It’s been wrong, fundamentally rotten at the core.
But I also think individuals have the power to change worlds. I think John McCain’s opportunities and temptations were cast large from the start, not by his wish, but hey–who gets to choose, right? Big opportunities don’t automatically grant strength commensurate with responsibility because who doesn’t need the grace to fuck up sometimes like people will, fortunate or otherwise? Anybody human has fracture lines.
John McCain didn’t have to be perfect. Public confession wasn’t required, much less desired. (As someone who knows entirely too much about politicians’ and media personalities’ private lives, I can only say, with great sincerity–ick.) Only naifs and victims of internet scams expected him to be a real maverick, though given Rove/Shrub’s historic disapproval ratings, he might have pulled it off. Nobody with two connecting brain cells really believed McCain would actually do anything remotely startling, least of all the machine political bosses, zombie loyalists and inevitable groupie sociopaths.
Which means he still had a chance. Especially given the economic implosion, what a glorious, bittersweet, unique plant-yer-feet-look-the-other-guy-in-the-eye-and-tell-the-truth opportunity.
Bitter, given his slandered chance in 2004, but what an invitation for a maverick/idealist to make good on the lies. He’s 72, survived torture as a POW, had 4 cancer surgeries, married a +$100/million wife–what the fuck is he afraid of? What does he think the GOP bully boys can do to him now? He’s already survived the worst they could dish out; certainly he can’t believe they actually write history.
Maybe it’s just dreary habit of thought. Or entrenched…something.