Sorry for being dense, here, NoClue but do you have a URL for us laypersons?
Yes, please.
Sorry guys.
It’s the place cj set up during the “Winter of Our Missed Content.”
It’s become a depression help board of sorts, according to CJ.
I never knew about it til about 15 minutes ago, and I didn’t get an URL cause i thought I could just find a link for it.
And I can’t get her back on the phone yet. Still trying.
Anyone else know the page?
Oh well…I have to be going. Hope everything turns out well tonight. Will check in tomorrow.
Ryle, I’ll leave you with the following thought: The simple fact that there are now close to 2,200 views of this thread sould tell you something…
Hang in there: You’re not alone. [Far from it]
Man, watch it. That looked an awful lot like you were mocking the red man.
I had to reactivate my Yahoo account so confirmation of membership in the group will probably come tomorrow.
Good night all.
On preview, I see you already found it.
Cool.
I’ll keep checking in periodically.
CJ’s phoen has ben bsuy for for quite a while now, maybe he called!
Ryle. Good luck.
**Ryle Dup, ** about 12 years ago, I attempted suicide. According to my mom, the EMT’s wouldn’t let her ride in the ambulance with me because they didn’t think I was going live long enough to get to the hospital. The hospital was only a five-minute ride, by speeding ambulance.
I made it, obviously.
Since then, life has been…well, life. It’s had it’s good points and it’s bad points. A couple of things so ass-suckingly horrible that thoughts of death crossed my mind again (one just a couple of months ago, in fact–if you search for posts by me in June, you’ll read all about it).
But that suicide attempt 12 years ago, and the resulting week-long stay in a locked psychiatric ward, taught me one thing. *Accepting help is okay. *
You might not think you communicate well with people. That doesn’t matter. These people want to communicate with you, *because they care. About you. *
Let them. Let them care, listen to them, unload on them, and then, please please PLEASE get professional help. Please.
At the time of my suicide attempt, I was not diagnosed as clinically depressed. Why, I don’t know, because I certainly was. The actual diagnosis of clinical depression came about three years ago. The meds I now take changed everything.
Life still has it’s really bad points. But now I know that taking myself out won’t actually solve anything. It only seems like it will. And I say that as someone *who has actually been there, * okay? Someone who has learned the very, very hard way that facing the issues and dealing with the problems can truly suck major ass, but in the long run, it really is better than death.
And clinical depression is NOT YOUR FAULT. It is a chemical imbalance in your head that CAN BE CORRECTED. Please, see a doctor than can prescribe something for you that will get you started down the road to mental health.
Again, I know you don’t know me. But I have been where you are. Different reasons, I’m sure, but I have been there. And I know enough about the Dopers that have offered you help to know that they are sincere. Please take their help. And please see a doctor. Please.
And feel free to email me anytime, at demetersdaughter67@hotmail.com.
Most sincerely,
Cristi
Ryle, I am a survivor of a suicide impulses. I know that when you let someone know that you are thinking about ending your life, you are not asking for pity. I am an old woman, and I am afraid for you, my young friend.
One of the things that scares me is that when you are this depressed, the part of your brain which makes sound decisions is not functioning as it should. That’s why it is very, very important that you get help. You would be doing something that is so extreme and totally unnecessary.
This is not a weakness on your part. It is an illness just like any other physical illness. This one affects the brain. You have to hang on.. Do it in defiance of the anger and hurt.
Relief will come soon. Take the hands offered to you. We have been where you are but now the pain has stopped for most of us. We just want to get you to a safe place mentally and physically.
Let go. We are here.
I am unable to log onto the Yahoo site, but I would appreciate an update as soon as anyone knows about Ryle.
its kind of like being locked in a cage but still able to shout out things.
there are 2 people in my head, one who has the body and the other is typing right now. and the one without the typing is the one who makes rash decisions and viscious emotional shit…
makes me wanna die now so i dont have to deal with this crap
i can tell you the advice doesn’t help
im sure everyone thinks im an ass for saying that ,but its just what i observe through person #2
He’s posted within the last half hour on the Yahoo group. It’s depressing, but at least he’s posting
Ryle, please, don’t do this. Take a break, get some perspective, and get help.
well, okay. There ya go.
Ryle, I’ve been there too. You can get through this if you’ll let people help you.
This is why I have not really posted in Great Debates for about two years now.
I don’t think you’re an ass.
I do think you’re in need of help. You haven’t left yet, so maybe, just maybe, part of you (the screaming guy in the cage maybe?) has a little bit of a desire to live.
That’s a good thing.
When in actuality I was slightly altering an oft-used phrase here … “When come back, bring pie.” Changed the last word, that’s all.
Ryle, you might benefit from reading The Silver Chair.
You can think what you want about the advice. Call me or the rest of us Dopers any names you want. Tell us our advice sucks ass and will never work.
Please. Call me a raving loony clueless bitch who has no idea what you’re going through. I’m perfectly okay with your opinion, whatever it may be.
I’m fine with whatever you think. So long as you post it here, where everyone can see it, please. Thanks. 
What would you do if you noticed a girl on this or another forum, who seemed very intelligent and thoughtful, but expressed misery or a wish to harm herself?
What if you had read her words and corresponded with her and felt some attachment for her? What if she had made a good impression on you, so much that you thought “I would really like to meet her someday” How would you keep her safe?
Would you offer comfort? Try to reach her and talk with her?
Is it so far out for you to imagine that the people offering help to you might sincerely love you a little? After all, you have been here awhile, and made some very expressive and carefully worded contributions to the discussions here. Many of us have related to you and respected you simply because of your honesty.
This online community may not be a conventional family, but can be even more supportive and kind either because of or in spite of the anonymity.
You are already a son or a brother to a family you haven’t seen face to face yet. That is what you have gained by expressing your dismay- you have been adopted by random but loving and hopeful family from all over the globe.
Any person who has reached out to you in this thread would fly to you in a second given half a chance.
Please don’t doubt the kindness and concern offered here. There are more people than you can imagine who have not left their computers in the hours since you opened this discussion, and many have desperately scrambled to find a way to reach you.
Each piece of advice may not apply to exactly how you feel, but so many painful memories that had to be brought to the surface show that there is a common thread here.
If all of the notes written to you here today were on paper you would see the tear stains for yourself. Please come back.