Well, life is chaos now. She decided that the LDR was no longer rewarding enough for all the pain it caused yesterday and so here I am not really knowing which way to go. It’s odd; once you’ve had plans long enough, figuring the future out when they collapse is remarkably difficult. Hell, all the assumptions I used to be able to make regarding the next few years are now invalid, so I have to start over at ground level and work up. This is one of those firsts that I hoped I would never have to experience.
I guess I can’t complain too much. Yeah, it hurts to break up, and there was certainly enough pain on both sides along the way, but she did me way more good than she ever did harm. Before I met her, I was too shy to be capable of even modest socialization, had no reason to smile and no great love for mankind, and I was arrogant as all hell. I’m still arrogant - probably always will be - but she made a human being of me and I’ll never forget her.
So anyway, here’s a toast to the one I love; may her life get better for want of my presence therein. May life smile on her, and here’s hoping she smiles instead of cursing when she remembers me in the years ahead.
You are truly to be honored. You recognize your faults, which is more than I can say for most people. Meanwhile, hang in there. Somewhere in this wide world is a woman who will love you, arrogance and all, the way you want to be loved. And more importantly, you will love her the same way.
Such a refreshing attitude for someone going through a breakup. It’s nice you don’t seem to have a lot of bitterness. I hope the pain doesn’t last too long.
You are a wonderful man, and person. Life will bring you someone else to love, as hard as that is to believe right now, and as much as you don’t want to hear it.
My prayers are with you, and you have my number if you want to talk.
I’d like to take this opportunity to tell you that the way you deal with life leaves me in awe. Whenever you have posted about your personal trials, you have never been bitter, never resentful, never vengeful. You have merely assessed the problem and moved on, always with a kind word to end on.
You are a great person, both from what I’ve seen on the boards and IRL. The world needs more great people, but you’ve brought us closer to the desired value. Good luck in all you do.