I am an alcoholic

So what happened after the party? Sounds like it got a little crazy.

Dude, you seriously need to seek help.

Yeah - I apologize for contending the OP was someone who impressed me as potentially able to get his shit together himself. He possibly still could, but his mind is obviously in no current condition to do so.

Thanks all for the your honest participation here. This thread has obviously run its course, and I’ll ask the mods to close it. Hopefully I’ll be back with a happy ending at some point.

I didn’t get into trouble every time I drank, but every time I got in trouble it was hen I was drinking.

I hope for the best for you.

I’ll close this since the OP asked for it and it seems to be a reasonable, good reason.