My husband and I have been married almost two years. We did not date long before getting married, which is probably some of the trouble today.
Last December, I left him for a couple of months due to his drinking and rants. He stopped drinking and I moved back. Shortly after moving back (April), he began to stop doing little things for me: notes in my lunch, e-cards, talking at supper and worse - sex.
While apart he kept telling me how I opened his eyes and this new guy I was seeing was the new him. He was attentive and affectionate and I could talk with him and he wouldn’t resort to childish tantrums (“that’s right, I’m an asshole, it’s all my fault”). I told him that I was afraid it was all a ruse to get me back and now I see that I was right.
We haven’t had sex since early June. He goes to work, comes home, eats when I tell him dinner is done and spends the rest of the night watching tv and playing on the computer. In the morning he rolls his cigarettes and rarely talks unless he wants to complain about work or neighbors.
I get up, make his lunch, make my lunch, go to work, come home, get the mail, make supper, wash the dishes, maybe do some laundry, take care of the pets, tidy up around the house and if I have some time or energy, I might do some crafts.
Most meals are spent in silence. I’ll ask questions, “how was your day?” or “anything interesting happen today?” and he will give an answer with as few words as possible. He does not ask me anything. So conversation is a struggle.
He doesn’t look at me when he does talk to me - he looks at the floor, the ceiling, out the window, anywhere but at me. I find this annoying, I’ve asked him why he can’t look at me but it continues.
Honestly, I’m on the verge of leaving again and if I do, I won’t be fooled into coming back.
But is it me? Am I not understanding like he says I’m not. He says that his job is physically demanding and that is why he doesn’t bother with sex- because he is tired.
Any thing I could try to see if things improve?