Thank y’all. Sincerely.
And Damuri, there is no one. Well, there was, but my grandfather has been dead for 36 years. Hell, even with that, I have no idea if the way she idolizes him was actually for real while he was still alive. That may only be for attention-whoring purposes now.
I’m very chuffed to hear that you sound more positive now faithfool!
All the best, kam.
Well, the entire Art of Peace is in the link. But yeah, there are other books like that, plenty. Or you could take a look at things from that perspective and just create your own, even if you don’t write it down. These ancient Chinese texts can be a bit awkward after all.
Your therapist can even serve as a reference for your cleaning services, now 
and I haven’t met your aunt but I absolutely love her. Yay Auntfool!
I’m glad things are looking brighter, faithfool. No advice to offer, just sincere wishes that things will improve, especially with Auntfool running interference! {{{hugs}}}
I just wanted to say I’m so happy to hear things are looking up for you. Give a big hug to that awesome aunt!
Wonderful to hear. Don’t get discouraged when you have the next down day, cause you’ll have it. It might help to keep your optimistic post to remind yourself there are good days when the next hopeless one hits.
(Says the woman who can currently sob and laugh at the same time with no warning - well, can implies I can control it - nope.)
Sorry I don’t have anything helpful to add, but I’m glad to hear the good news. Sending virtual supportive hugs your way. ((hugs))
I am so glad, dear.
Faithfool you have a course set, you have a plan, and you have the momentum. I’d say that right about now, you’re kicking grief’s ass.
Well Done!!!
Thank you all, very very much. I’ve felt a lot better in the last day and I am cautiously optimistic. I appreciate everyone encouraging me and for the great advice. PMs will go out today.
I’m glad that things are looking up. I also really like your aunt!
You’ve been under tremendous pressure for years. Being a caregiver is NOT easy. Add the toll of those years to your recent loss and I think you’re doing fantastically well.
Remember, there is no “right” way to grieve. No rule about how long it takes, or what it looks like. Keep asking for help when you need it. We’ll be a cheering section even if we can’t be right there with you.
Hugs from California!