Hello all. Tonight I am having my very own pity party and thought I would invite everyone. Who knows, maybe some good advice will come out of it.
So first I guess I should tell my story. I am from an extremely small town in eastern Kentucky (we are talking major hick here). I went to school away from home, but only 2 hours. I lived in a small college town in KY for 4 years and then moved to West Virginia for yet more school. During my undergraduate years I happened to meet an totally awesome guy online. He started out as my spades partner and things very slowly went on from there… The problem was: he lived in Texas.
Last May I graduated from school and decided to make the big move down to Texas. I managed to find a job in Houston before I moved so I thought things were going to be okay…
Now almost a year later, I am completely miserable. I HATE the job I have. I have a higher degree than most of the people who work there and yet am treated like I’m clueless and stupid. The job is not in the field I have my degree in, but forensic science jobs are few are far between here right now. So problem #1 would be a job I hate so much it is an effort to climb out of the bed each morning. I’ve been actively working on finding something new, but its not going as well as I had hoped.
Now for problem #2. I have no friends. I have some people at work that I really like, but they are all of a different race and already have a very cohesive group that is really not open to people like myself. Other than work, I really don’t go anywhere. I am living with my now fiance and he’s pretty much the only person I have contact with outside of my carpool group and my co-workers. I’ve always made new friends in new places, but I guess it was easy because of the fact that I was in school. I have no idea where to meet them in the “real world”. I don’t do the bar scene and am currently not attending church. I hate being almost 20 hours from all of my friends and family.
Problem #3: I truly love my fiance. I can’t imagine anyone caring more about me than he does and I feel the same way about him. But, he’s not willing to move out of the state right now. I wouldn’t ask him to anyway because his mother is terminally ill with cancer and he needs to spend as much time with her as possible.
Thus, I feel stuck. I can try to find a job in my field in another state, but I will lose the love of my life and possibly still have no friends. Or, I can stay here and cry all the time because I hate it.
Ugh. So much for happily ever after.
Thanks for taking time to “listen” to my problems and my whining.