Not really a rant, but if the Mods decide this belongs in BBQ Pit, then I bow to their wishes. Also, if this is sorta rambling, my apologies.
Early yesterday morning, my brother was dropped off on his ex-wife’s lawn by some druggie buddies of his. He was having seizures, so she called an ambulance and had him taken to the hospital. The doctors kept giving him shots to stop the seizures, but he kept having them. Right before noon yesterday, my brother lapsed into a coma.
I’ve only told one person besides my family, mostly because I don’t want to depress anyone with my problems. But since I felt I had to vent this somewhere, I decided to come to the SDMB, where at least you can choose to open this thread and be assaulted with this dreary situation.
This is going to sound horrifying, and I know it is, but – in a way, it’d almost be a relief if he died. At least it’d be peaceful and quick if he just slipped off in his coma, rather than waking up and being killed in some violent way, like I’ve been dreading. He’s in his mid-thirties, and has been an addict since his early teens. If my brother were going to change, he would have done so now. Dying now would mean I’d never have to be woken up by a phone call saying that he’s been shot or committed suicide or something even worse. If that’s reprehensible, than I am very sorry, but that’s what I’m thinking now.