My self-loathing! Your self-loathing! Everyone's self-loathing!

Miscellaneous and Personal Stuff I Must Share
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Okay, this is good… I knew it would be ridiculously easy to play on everyone’s insecurities - or better, get you to play on them for me! MWAHHAHAHHAA!
Anyway, a few random thoughts:

This is bad? I could see if you said “I ran over an animal last night, and I liked it!!!” But, just a near miss? Chill, baby!

Scotti and Falcon, no need to get fancy. This is free-form self-loathing. However, merely posting to say you hate yourself too much to post is insufficient. Get cracking!

tatertot takes First Runner-up for Best Self-fulfilling Post:

Yes, apparently they are.
Winner in this category definitely goes to Spritle:

Excellent!

Umm, aren’t there laws against this kind of thing? You sure you want to admit this in a public forum? :wink:

WTF is this, exactly? I was thinking Geek Code at first, but it’s way too short. Some other personality-lumping device?
And, last but not least:

You rule! Has there ever been a situation where you were at a loss for the perfect quote?
Keep 'em coming, everyone!

  • Dave
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[QUOTE]
*Originally posted by BigGiantHead *
**Okay, this is good… I knew it would be ridiculously easy to play on everyone’s insecurities - or better, get you to play on them for me! MWAHHAHAHHAA!
Anyway, a few random thoughts:

Cheerleading in a self loathing thread?!

Even if you are the OP that’s just well… so wrong. It contorts the entire point of the thing. It messes up the momentum of the nice giant whirling black hole of angst this thread was developing into.

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I’m pushing 20 and a virgin.

Not only that, but there’s only been one woman in my life that I’ve been anywhere close to serious with, and I screwed it all up.

I’m passing my sexual peak. See above two entries.

I don’t like babies either.

I’m a pretty smart guy, if I do say so myself, but sometimes I flaunt it unconsciously, and I think my friends think I’m arrogant.

I am also a complete coward, except when I’m pissed off.

When I’m pissed off, I go from complete coward to complete asshole.

I get pissed off over stupid things.

I tend to get enamored with women who act like complete bitches to me and obviously will never be interested in me.

I sometimes drink too much and do stupid things. Once in a while I have long blackouts. (I have been getting a lot better with this recently, but that’s not quite appropriate for this thread.)

I am 6 feet tall and weigh 130 pounds. Translation: scrawny as all fuck. Probably a significant reason the women aren’t interested in me.

I have no self-confidence, yet plenty of self-esteem. (Not a good combination. Recipe for angst right there.)

I have regrets. Lots and lots of regrets. At 19 years of age.

My GPA is slowly sliding, and I’m not sure if I’m going to be able to keep my scholarship long enough to graduate.

I didn’t vote in the last election, which would have been my first chance to vote.

Only one of my friends owns a photograph of me. This, despite the fact that my college friends’ houses are wallpapered with pictures of all sorts of random occurrences, including some people who rarely hang out there. I, on the other hand, was at their houses a good 80-90% of the days of this school year.
I could definitely go on, but I’m not going to.

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everybody’s doing…so will i

I am 21 years old and still live at home working part time.
I dropped outta JC because I got tired of getting up early (10am)
I’m extremely shy
I’m very lazy
I sleep about 12 hours a day
I’m overweight and rarely excersize
My grammar and spelling and everything i learned in school is fading fast
I cry at the stupidest things.
I think i’m funny and everybody doesn’t
I’ve cheated on 2 boyfriends
I can’t get along with other people.
I hate girls and will avoid them every chance i get
I buy stuff i can’t afford, then bitch that i don’t have gas money
I spend too much time online
I refuse to clean my room even though dishes are getting moldy
I owe money to many companies which i never plan on paying(columbiahouse,bmg,…)
I sit around in my pajamas alot
I’m a complete jerk when my feelings are hurt and will make you pay
I rarely smile when people are looking
I yell at people when i’m driving around
I’m new at this forum
k thats enough for now

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*I say wrong things at the wrong time.
*I can get really shy around people I see all the time, and this is a factor to my low social life.
*I seem to make friends with people who don’t really care.
*Sometimes I don’t care about people at all, just about myself.
*I can dish out critisisms, but I can’t take them.
*I can be a hypocrite sometimes (see above)
*Sometimes I’m snide.
*I’m lazy.
*I drink way too much caffiene and get angry when I can’t stop. I may be getting an ulcer because of it.
*I hate small children and they can see that; they run away when they see me (no fooling; they’ll stare and then they’ll back away)
*I don’t trust people either, or I trust them too much. I’ve had friends manipulate me, but I just denied it.
*I’m way more mature than my peers, which is hard when trying to make friends in high school, which I have very few. But I’ve graduated now, so I feel a little better.
*My idea of a wild Saturday night is staying home and watching the same DVDs over and over and I’m getting sick of that. Sometimes I don’t mind, but sometimes I do.
*I’m really lazy about cleaning stuff.
*I should be helping my parents out, especially since they’re letting me live at home now, but I’m too lazy. And I start to whine when they tell me to do the simplest tasks. I’m just an ungrateful only child.
*I get angry when I wonder why nobody is like me (my good qualities, not my bad-as seen here).
*I’m not kind. I don’t rewind. (the video tapes for the store). Thought I’d throw in a humor point…um…ok.
*My friend says I’m bitter, but I say I’m just cynical. Sometimes I’m too negative.
*I dwell on things way too much.

Well, this is enough.

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My posts contain little to no substance.
I still use the word “gay” as an insult.
I ditched my friend’s party last night because I spent too long unpacking boxes with my boyfriend.
I hate the word “boyfriend”.
I hate the expression “going out”.
I don’t take pills when they’re prescribed.
When I have my period, everyone has to know how much it hurts.
I can’t sleep later than 10:00 AM.
I’ve stopped going to church for no reason other than it doesn’t reach me.

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and I miss all of you wonderful people.

----:)/ x o x o x
----///\\

And besides that, my shortcomings are too numerous to list.

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Don’t loathe yourself over these… I hate them (and “girlfriend”) too and I don’t think it’s a bad thing.

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  • I’m a sympathy whore
  • farts in church and drinks holy water
  • I’m a legend in my own mind
  • too cynical
  • thinks too much
  • wanna fuck my girlfriends best friend
  • more intrigued by flaws than qualities
  • despises pop culture trends
  • voices in head causes hearing impairment, I’m not a good
    listener.
  • faltering short-term short-term memory
  • too uninhibited
  • incurable insomniac
  • secondary smokes 2 packs a day
  • refers to himself in the 3rd person
  • despises math
  • perverted
  • I hate you, I hate me, I hate people who hated me before I hated them, I hate people who hate me who I actually don’t hate them. I’d rather be hated than loved.
  • I hate yuppies
  • people on the El whose conversation can be heard throughout the entire train
  • making fun of the misfortune of others
  • sick of flirting, wanna have more sex
  • sick of mediocre/bad/lousey sex
  • Charity lay’s must stop
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balance my checkbook?! half of the time i do not record any info about the checks i write!

I hate cleaning, but end up cleaning up ANYWAY.
I DO NOT sort MY laundry.
i have my fourth learners permit.
i am still a virgin
i spend lots of time alone in my room
i am online too much
i hate to vacuum
i do not masturbate very often
i am very impatient
i mumble
i drink too much soda pop
i spend time thinking of evil things to say

i shall think of some more for this list later!

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Brief hijack here – welcome to the SDMB, eyesOnly. Cool choice of name!

Now – self-loathing, you say? I only wish I had a qualification, or something similar, so I don’t just do jobs where my heart and sould gets ripped up into tiny little pieces and blown away on the wind. But I don’t hate myself for that. Actually, I don’t hate myself over anything, really. Not even the crappy state of my home, or the cold 'cause I can’t afford heating, or the fact that I’ll put off washing dishes until I run out of stuff to eat on.

Wanna know what I think? You folk don’t have that much self-loathing either. From what I’ve seen of your wit and wisdom – nah. I don’t believe a word of it.

Bye, now.

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Yes, it’s a reference to a personality-lumping device, specifically, the Myers-Briggs/Kiersey personality tests.

INFP’s are Healer Idealists, the rarest of the personality types. They’re “abstract in thought and speech, cooperative in striving for their ends, and informative and introverted in their interpersonal relations” (or so http://www.kiersey.com says.)

What makes this interesting and/or relevant is that a much higher ratio of posters on the SDMB are INFPs than in the general population. I’m far too lazy to actually count, but of the people participating in the linked “Kiersey Temprament Sorter” thread, INFPs make up about 40% of the SDMB (as compared to less than 1% in the general population). Which I would say would be statistically significant at a 99% confidence level if it were a random sample of the SDMB. But as it’s not a random sample or even a good count of a participating sample, I’m just taking up bandwidth.

http://boards.straightdope.com/sdmb/showthread.php?threadid=38930

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Dude, me too!

That’s my biggest hate about myself, plus I’m a slob. I’m so glad Myers-Briggs put it all in perspective for me. :smiley:

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OK. Here goes. deep breath

  • I don’t drive and don’t want to.
  • I, too, was a virgin while I was pushing 20. I, however, kept on pushing all the way to 26. Since then? Zobbo.
  • Which isn’t to say I didn’t have ample opportunity. I was just completely and thoroughly clueless.
  • I can’t flirt, and never get flirted at.
  • I even procrastinate at things I want to do.
  • I eat way too much frozen food.
  • I’ve spent way too many weekends where the only person I actually vocally communicate with is the checkout guy at the grocery.
  • I never iron. Never.
  • I harp on and on about how crappy my last job was to my current co-workers, who don’t care.
  • I go way too long between haircuts.
  • I avoid getting into new and unfamiliar places or situations alone.
  • I’m never going to meet anyone around here unless I get into some new and unfamiliar places or situations.
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I’m too chicken even to contribute to this thread.

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  • I am an Infertile Myrtle
  • I was cruel to one of my friends when she called to tell me she was having twins
  • When Mr. Doughnut points out when I did something wrong, I don’t accept reponsibility
  • I can’t let things go.
  • I wallow in self-pity (like right now)
  • I only have three posts
    XOXO,
    Forbidden…
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I have PCOS which causes several problems, including:
*horrific facial & body hair growth (I get my face waxed 2x a month just to look normal)
*a weight gain of 90 lbs. over the past two years, most of which sits on my waist
*infertility
*depression
*wacky blood sugar levels

I do not have health insurance, so I do what I can to deal with these problems.

I have serious trust issues with people

I have never found myself attractive

Even though I have done quite a bit in my life, I still think I haven’t done enough.

Even though I did extremely well in school, I still feel like a failure.

Even though I’ve tested with an above average IQ, I still think I’m pretty damn stupid.

I take out too much of my anger and frustration about life on my SO.

I don’t visit my grandmother as much as I should.

I hate being confronted because I become extremely agitated, loud and irrational when it happens.

I’ve lost alot of interest in sex.

I don’t share well. (I’m an only child, I’m not used to it)

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  • I’m still in love with my ex-boyfriend
  • He broke up with me months and months ago
  • He got over me in less than a week and is going out with a quieter, less crazy, blonde, white chick
  • I’m too loud
  • I don’t care about myself and put the happiness of my two best friends before my own
  • I’m lazy
  • I procrastinate
  • I hug people I barely know
  • I hug other people’s boyfriends
  • I’m miserable and I’m not doing anything about it
  • I hate my best friend’s boyfriend
  • He hates me
  • I “have the ability to do better” in school, but I don’t
  • I don’t study
  • I’ve grown apathetic about grades
  • I’m overweight 5’4" 130lbs
  • I don’t cut my hair because I’m terrified of the reaction I’ll get
  • I care way too much about what my ex thinks of me
  • I don’t exercise as much as I should
  • The vast majority of my teachers dislike me
  • It’s in the best interest of my best friend to stay away from me for a while
  • I 've been suicidal
  • I’ve held a whole lot of hatred and resentment toward’s not only my ex’s new chick but also towards people rather close to me
  • I listen to country
  • I don’t tell people what I’m really feeling
  • The only person who I tell how I really feel either couldn’t care less or chooses not to do anything about it
  • Self destructive behavior, I learned this weekend that you can leave burn marks with a heated screwdriver
  • Rulers are my friends
  • My friends won’t let me get near them for very good reasons
  • I have a cheesy British accent when I quote Shakespeare
  • I can’t act
  • I’m taking two drama classes next year
  • More to follow

Kitty

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[ul]
[li]I hate when my friends have boyfriends/girlfriends[/li][li]I want to have sex, but I don’t, but I do, but I’m too young, but I really really really want to, but I shouldn’t[/li][li]I rarely eat healthy foods.[/li][li]I hate people who chew loudly[/li][li]I don’t let people compliment me. I’m rude when they do. I don’t want to hear how nice my hair looks, or how someone thinks I have a pretty shirt, or whatever. Don’t tell me I’m attractive.[/li][li]I don’t have a horrible body, but I think I do.[/li][li]I love bragging to my friends how I’ve gone down two pants sizes in a year and how I have to get my shirts at A&F kids instead of the regular A&F because I’m not big enough.[/li][li]I’m a huge hypocrite.[/li][/ul]

Thanks, guys, this is great therapy!

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gulp

-I am physically revolted when catching someone in a lie
It literally makes me want to vomit on their face.
-I am obsessed with how tightly I can lace my corset, how swiftly i can spank an ass, and how precisely i can bite (people) But i never balance my checkbook and im too chickensh*t to wax my own legs.
-I spend way too much money on people who really don’t deserve a damn thing, and never buy myself anything.
-I drink too much Mt Dew - But I love it.
-I hate my chin!!!
-I used to put lye in my mom’s ex Boyfriends hairplug tonic… Because I wanted it to melt his corn rows. (He just sucked)
-I smoke too much, but i love to.
-I think about masturbation too much.
-I eat once a day, I always eat alone - and i like it.
-I have bags under my eyes that make me look like a corpse.
-I analyze everything, I think too much
-I just ate an entire small pizza with extra cheese.
-I sent a voodoo doll to my old roomate because she stole all my things (She’s a fanatical church person)And she had a nervous breakdown. (And I laughed) I didn’t feel bad.
-I’m highly aroused by Tall, creepy, gothic Men. And Vinyl.
drool (That is a flaw because there are none to be found)
Just Setting myself up for failure.

If I can’t laugh at myself - the world will have to do it alone.