Hey y’all.
To quickly respond…thank you. It’s nice to feel cared for even though I’ve not met you or anyone else on this thread.
The funny thing about your suggestion is that it seems like I’ve done that many times over in my life I’ve moved twice to new locations, gone backpacking, take canoe trips, learned dance, yoga, etc…it all seems so pointless to keep trying new things…like no matter what I do I will always get the same result. A sense of people liking but never loving me. Still yes I’m wading slowly into some different routines. Work is busy again…so life overhaul will probably have to wait until June. I went to Salsa though and a friend of mine I don’t usually see held a small social dance in her place. I went and had fun. I’ll be giving blood again soon. Perhaps the only real big change left is for me to up and move away.
This week…the routine continues. Work and my social activities keeps me engaged and busy until the weekend…when I feel alone. I hate Friday nights. I tried to hang out with a friend (who is a woman) but no dice. Being alone sucks. To add to my pains tonight…I switched my eating to a ketosis diet to lose some weight. It’s working…but now I have whats called the keto-flu (flu like symptoms whilemy body adapts). I feel like shit physically and somewhat shitty emotionally.