I don’t agree. She’s definitely not cruel, she’s the sweetest girl I’ve ever known. Her view of me seemed to change, quite rapidly. Almost in a cyclical fashion. I think she is not well. That is why she disappeared on me like that. Her brain is a constant whirlwind and she thinks I’m evil one day and a saint the next. But I was aware that it was symptomatic of her condition and I weathered the ups and downs. Because I loved her.
But, in hindsight now, I see that the relationship never really stood a chance in the long run. Yes, I contributed to the problems, no doubt. I lost my temper a few times and yelled when I shouldn’t have. But I never, in any capacity, was abusive. She was so sensitive to my anger, however, that she felt harmed by that anger. It took me a while to come to terms with this. So while it’s for the best that we’re done, I still care about her. She is like a ship lost at sea. But it’s not my war. I have my own battles to fight.