I just admitted to use of a certain substance to a close friend of mine, and now I have this odd feeling that she’s really upset with me. Why the fuck did I just do that? I could have lied and everything would have been fine, but then I’d feel bad about that. This really fucking sucks! I know she’s just concerned, and I really appreciate that, but what the hell was I thinking even bringing it up?! I guess I thought she would be okay with it. Fuckpissfuckdamnassholeshitmotherfuckercocksuckingbastardasswipe!
OK, how close was the friend, what was the substance, and how should this now have a bearing upon your relationship? Are we talking seriously dangerous drugs, one’s that your friend would have a legitimate reason for fearing?
Why would it worry you telling a close friend that you are a user? Perhaps your mate already knew.
Why be clandestine with something that (is) (might) (potentially) be part of YOUR life?
OK, twenty questions over.
No it isn’t big part of my life at all. The substance is pot, which IMHO is not a serious drug, and I very rarely use it. When I say very rarely I mean maybe once every 2 weeks if that. I’m just pissed off because I can’t help but feel that she’s dissapointed in me even though she does not really say anything. I’m pissed off at myself too for not finding some way to get out of telling her, which would have made things worse in the long run. She is a close friend of mine so I can see why she’s concerned, but it’s not like I’m passing out with a needle in my arm every night. I just hope this does not affect our friendship which I think it could since she is very much against any illegal/conrolled substances. I do, however, know for a fact that I won’t let it lead to harder drugs since I’ve seen the effects of those on people’s lives. To be honest I’m really scared shitless of alot of them.