Brace yourself. I’m about to load you with a downy text.
Every day, I’m battling my own thoughts that come to me from a mental illness. Makes me sad, mad, all the junk etc the heart could have. Telling myself good things when I can, by force. No effect.
I used to be close enough to friends, but I can’t find one now. I’m great at socializing, but the farthest that goes is I call, and they say they’re too busy to do anything with me. This doesn’t change. I’m not gonna assume I’m some problem.
I don’t have enough money for any transportation, and no one can really drive me. I can’t hold a job long enough to make any more than a few hundred at a time. Been landing jobs every month, though. A Mcdonalds is keeping me for now. I’ll stick with them unless BigThink or a Voicestudio contacts me for my applications.
The family I live with isn’t really the blessing most people would guess they are. Controlling, critical people are nothing but sappers in life. I do have enough strength to tell them my opinions directly when they confront. Not the kind of people I want to trust my feelings with.
I’d like to be doing live comedy. No bar within 20 miles. Walking would be f**k brave, eh? I can imagine the joy of the battery on my iPod running out as I hum some Lion King’s Circle of Life.
Therapy’s not been working since I was an adolescent. I’m concluding I need a different method to get better emotionally.
No dates. I don’t think being authentic and energetic cuts it when you’re living with your parents. (19 years old) Still dateable, though.
I can’t really concentrate well, because of my thoughts. Writing seems to work out better than most, though. I’m also into entrepreneuring and engineering, so I’ll be coming up with new things to market sooner or later.
No money for life coach. But finishing school in a week for a high school diploma!
So the topic of IMHO is what would you do to make it better if you were me?
Things that would help:
Flow of income
Emotional health
independence
Social life
A f***ing car?
My assets and skills:
Internet
Physically A-Okay
Food and stuff
A job that’s starting again tomorrow
Intellect. IQ 140-150
Social Skillz
A mother that’s okay.
Phone!