I am becoming something of an asshole, so I want to try to pit this issue in a conflict resolution mode. Wish me luck. This is going to work soooooo well.
Last fall I was very unpopular on this board because I was so openly abornmal and for all the bullshit about tolerance we have people are still apes. People were taking unprovoked shots at me all of the time both because of how weird I am/was and because other people were doing it. Last fall I couldn’t ask a factual question on GQ without someone making an unprovoked attack at least once a week. Skip was one of those people. I posted a thread that came across as racist because I worded it poorly. I meant to ask are the fanatical Islamists blaming the US for these attacks in this thread the same way they blamed the Jews for 9/11, and worded it poorly. My mistake. Rather than address the issue like an adult, he insulted me, made assumptions and asked me to email him as if I needed his forgiveness. My mistake for wording it poorly but considering how the US was blamed for upholding dictatorships all over the mideast, planting dictators all over the mideast, Israel was blamed for gulf war 1 & 2 and 9/11 I thought it was a legitimate question on whether this was happening. I should’ve worded it better.
In response to what I felt was cheap shot (he could’ve handled it better), Clothahump also took a cheap shot at me.
I have never insulted either of them before they took those shots at me. I find that pretty repugnant. I can understand insulting people who insult you first though, but not insulting people because it is popular, or because they are weird. I feel both of you are pretty low people and I wish you had the courage to insult people face to face instead. And clothahump, that means insulting people who are your equal in power. Don’t insult people as a cop, insult people who are bigger, smarter and tougher than you. Don’t go out and insult some kid in handcuffs, go out and insult someone who is a better martial artist than you are. Next time either of you or the 50+ people on this board who act like assholes feel the urge, why not go outside and insult strangers instead? Insult people who can fight back and hold you accountable, not people online or people who are unpopular. This method is very cowardly of you. I do not harass people unless I feel harassed first and I’d appreciate the same level of decency. For all Excalibres bullshit towards me I still do not harass gay people myself. I don’t harass gay people and I’d appreciate it if the gay people here wouldn’t harass those who have had to deal with a mental illness.
So I’d like to say that this board is 50% MIT, 50% junior high. I don’t like it at all sometimes. I have no desire to post anything personal or vulnerable on this board which is a good thing as I know it’ll be used as a weapon against me sooner or later. I admit to being extremely creepy and I am alot more mature and comfortable with that fact than I was 2 years ago, but the level of assholishness on this board is just too much for anything anymore.
I’m going to get the shit kicked out of me for this thread too I’m sure and I’m sure people will portray me as racist when I feel I was just being insulted by Skip because he came across to me as the type of person who attacks people when it is fashionable. The pit isn’t a good place to post but where else to go. If I posted this same thread now that I am somewhat less unpopular I doubt I would’ve gotten the same response. Perhaps I am racist, I don’t know. If I am I don’t mind having it pointed out by people who want to reform me, not by people who make assumptions and harass people because it is kosher. I dont like the guy. Him, Clotha, Guin, Davenport, Excalibre, Chefwide, John Carter, Czarcasm and about 50+ other people here. This board is just a total asshole magnet and I sometimes find myself very disappointed in this kind of people this board attracts. I still stay for the intelligent discussions, but this board attracts some total disappointments as people to it. I realize the decent people greatly outnumber the jerks here but it is still bothersome. But what other boards attract so many angry disgruntled people that they have to devote an entire board section to them? The jerks on this board bother me not so much because of this board, just because the people here are real people and I guess I’m still to naive to understand how many people I talk to daily are deep down insude as disgruntled and rude as the people here but just hide it. I actually find it kindof funny when people insult me here but a part of me wonders if the people I joke and talk with in real life aren’t exactly the same way as people like Skip or clothahump or excalibre but just hide it. I need better social skills so I can seperate wheat from chaff.
So yes I’m creepy, perverted, disgusting, odd, abnormal, unpopular, etc. I’m not happy about it but I’m pretty good at hiding it now, at least in real life. I am deeply sorry to myself that I was so naive that I posted personal info on this board. I’m more mature now and have better observation skills so that wouldn’t happen again. If you feel the urge to insult me for this thread, as I said go insult someone in real life instead. Insult your boss or someone smarter and stronger than you who is standing right next to you instead. Or maybe just learn to treat yourself and others with respect instead. That would be nice.
I really don’t want to be liked or anything or come across as a martyr, I just want to express my displeasure for the level of person this board attracts.