Anything that needs doing before the summer is done? Yes, everything.
I’m not making a joke here. I’ve got so many problems that I need to work on, that it’s just become overwhelming to work on any of them, so things in my life never get done, and then additional problems pile up, and I end up not working much on those either. And this whole thing was an issue before, though I did seem to be making progress, and then my mother’s death made me even less inclined to get anything important done.
And then I think about how bummed I get that I’m not getting anything done… it just goes around in a circle, like an ant mill I’m struggling to break free of.
I’m trying to work on things. I’ve written a list of my problems down. I’m working on cleaning. And I ordered two books today that I think can help me.
I think that what I really need is a therapist. So I researched that online, and found out that most local therapists are already fully booked, and all of them are expensive. (Unless you have insurance - so I’m discussing insurance with my dad, and what it could possibly do.)
Anyway, sorry for all these serious ramblings in a forum that’s supposed to be mundane and pointless.
I should get back to doing useful work on things. Though I think writing this post sort of helps, as it allows me to gather my thoughts.