Just woke up from a good long sleep. I don’t get those much anymore so it was nice, besides the bizarre dream I had.
Set back in my childhood neighborhood I somehow found myself roped into marriage with my crazy ex-gf. But she was younger, like really young, like only 18, and we couldn’t tell anyone. After trying to make some loveless sex, and pretending to enjoy… (well, okay, we don’t need all the details of my dream) we went back to her house where she still lived with her single Mom and Mom’s boyfriend.
Here’s the weird part though, the house they were living in was actually my best friend’s parent’s house. And even weirder still was that crazy ex-gf’s Mom was not the same lady, for some reason in my dream her Mom was the Mom of my high school gf.
We’re pretending to act like we haven’t just got married when suddenly and somehow my new wife says something too loud that hints at what happened, then all hell broke loose. Now Mom is throwing a fit and fighting, and everyone is crying, and we’re poking each other with sticks. And Mom’s boyfriend is even joining in on the fight, but he’s too fat to do anything but try to ram people with his butt… so we pushed him down the stairs.
And inbetween fighting everyone is still crying and I try to take out my cellphone and call a dummy number to see if I can cancel the ring before the call goes through, but it turns my phone into some magical walkie-talkie and we can hear inside the Mom’s bedroom as she’s talking about us and it gives crazy ex-gf some dirt to use against her Mom (which once again, is actually in the form of a Mom from a previous ex-gf) so that it proves she’s some sort of liar.
There was a lot more too it. Odd things about textbooks, canoes, we took a walk in the park, there was the brief ceremony of marriage. And that look in her eyes was still there. The one that wanted to, no, needed to hold on, but knew things were ruined for the both of us. Saddest goddam eyes I ever did see. If I could see myself I would have seen the eyes of someone dead I’m sure, someone who was defeated and given up long ago.
Anyways, I think it ended up that everyone was sorry, depressed, and I was still stuck in a loveless marriage with a woman I fear more than anything for the rest of my life… until I escape again.
The best part is that I slept until past 6PM, I haven’t done that for some time. But after a dream opera like that… wow.
The worst part is that I woke up missing her again.
Your resident TMI nut,
beebs