Thanks for all the e-hugs and well wishes and username compliments. They are very much appreciated. My sympathies to those who are going through the same thing. Much love to my fellow '85-er, as well.
fessie – thanks for the tale. It was pretty much spot on.
Really Not All That Bright – well, obviously marriage was not in the immediate future. After I graduated, and he got a real job and etc etc. I did have an “engagement ring,” however = a huge plastic yellow and green monstrosity that he got out of a quarter machine for me (I am the anti-high-maintenance-girl). I chucked it
eleanorigby – oh, trust me, immediately after posting this, I went out and got myself a bottle of rum, and my roommate and I pissed the entire day away drinking it. Apparently my tolerance has gone down some since I was nearly-21 and excited about being able to buy alcohol, as I was up until 5am arguing with my stomach over whether or not it should have water it. It’s going to be a few weeks before I can look at a drink again.
HazelNutCoffee – the next time I’m in Chicago I WILL take you up on that lesbian gingerbread. Not that I’ve ever actually been to Chicago, or had any plans to be there in the next 10 years or so, but hey, it might happen…
twickster – sadly, I am lacking transportation to Philadelphia at the moment, but perhaps I’ll have to make an appearance at a dopefest sometime and we can do so then. I’ll probably be the creepy stalker girl sitting in the corner staring at everyone because I’m too shy to come say hi.
Anyhow, I’m doing a lot better than I thought I would be.
Ever since the breakup I’ve had this weird, very uncomfortable, almost electrical feeling in my chest, radiating out to my arms. It’s been keeping me awake just because it’s so uncomfortable to sit still, and I’ve spent several hours pondering the potential existance of a “restless arm syndrome”. I even consider making an appointment just to make sure it’s anything serious, when I realized – duh, it’s a physical manifestation of anxiety. I have a WHOLE new appreciation for people who deal with severe anxiety – I never realized how bad it could be. I hope it goes away soon, because I can’t deal with this.
I’ not terribly sad though, just kind of apathetic and blah. I’ve been hanging in there, but I’m also giving myself a week or so to do nothing but lie in bed and mope. I’m currently unemployed, and only enrolled in online classes where I have nothing due until the 17th, so I’m lucky that this is feasable.
Anyway, I’ll stop rambling. Thanks again, everyone.
