Thanks for answering those few questions, it really does help to understand where you’re coming from.
That said, you need to recognize this is all about you. Women do not think and react the way you are imagining. Well, maybe last century in some backward place where purity is all. What you’re doing is called projection. This isn’t about how they will feel or react at all, it’s all about what you feel and you’re projecting it onto them, and imagining you can never date again, sigh.
Remember that famous Woody Allen line about, ‘I’d never want to be a member of any club that would want me, as a member!’ This is sort of what you’re doing. You’re not saying it outright, of course, but it appears as though you’re saying you can never date again because you wouldn’t want to be with any woman who would accept a man who had slept with a prostitute.
It has nothing to do with the women and everything to do with you. You’ve convinced yourself that you have so defiled yourself, in sleeping with a prostitute, that you are no longer fit to date virtuous women.
No one can really help you with this issue as it’s all you. Get over yourself already. Nobody’s perfect. Climb on down from that high horse and join us regular flawed beings.
You know what’s really virtuous? Being able to forgive someone their shortcomings. Could you forgive a woman who had slept with a male slut, (let’s put aside the issue of payment, for the moment), or would she, regardless of any other accomplishments, or virtues, be forever defiled in your eyes?
If you answer, ‘yes, I could forgive her’, then take a hard look at why you can’t forgive yourself, or imagine any worthy woman could forgive you. If you answer, ‘no, I could not forgive a less than virtuous woman’, then that explains a great deal. You are feeling a harsh judgment, (where none actually exists), because you judge others just as harshly.
So which is it? Could you forgive a woman such transgressions?