You. Or David Bowie. Or anybody right now.
Would you rather have a bottle in front of you or a frontal lobotomy?
Easy. Bottle in front of me.
What is your favorite alcoholic beverage?
Ginger or Maryann?
Bowie or Mercury?
Blackwell Rum when I feel flush with cash. Otherwise Seagrams 7 whiskey.
I should have asked you this in my previous post.
Have you ever considered other ways to get loaded? I mean, have you ever considered any other ways to get high? Have you tried many?
I’m thinking maybe you might find something else besides alcohol? I’m asking you this because perhaps you could find something that would enable you to feel good but would be less dangerous that booze? Specifically wondering about the dangers associated with drinking and driving. Or maybe even drinking and fighting? Or any one of a number of other dangers people may face after drinking.
Have you ever tried other drugs? And if so, did you ever find anything that pleased you?
Please don’t feel like you are under any obligations to answer. But if you have had some good experiences with some other drugs and you feel that you don’t face as many dangers with them, then maybe it might be of some interest to you to switch to some other drug?
Any chance?
Great post, Blackstock. Crave it-do it-regret it really sums it up! I’m very happy for you.
Along the same vein as Charlie’s post (and Charlie, I gotta say it’s much nicer to have this Charlie, the lucid, contributing, Charlie) I have seen more than 1 alcoholic helped by the recreational use of marijuana. The upside is that you’re doing much less damage to your liver and brain, the downside is that you’re replacing one crutch with another.
In your position, I would take marijuana over alcohol for binge use. A litre of whiskey in a sitting ain’t no joke.
Don’t want to bring you down, but your coworkers can probably see the truth behind the situation. Whether that matters to your employment situation or not is maybe another story.
When I admitted to a co-worker or two that I had an issue, the response was an immediate, “I know.” One co-worker was even able to tell me the type of alcohol I liked based on the smell around my person. Embarrassing.
OK, harm reduction. Fair question, and I did try that. I wish I was a stoner rather than a drinker, but the problem with drug-swapping is that all inebriants undermine your judgment. If say I substitute my drink for a big fat J, then my stoned brain says “this is great fun, but a shot of rum would send it over the top.” So it might work, but it would have to be under adult supervision, which is not applicable in my situation.
In the cold hard light of day, I’d like to thank everyone for supporting me in the midst of my little meltdown here. Nothing has changed since last night except now I feel like a bag of ass.
I know I’ve got to quit this. I don’t drink every day, my thing is to binge 2 random days out of the week. And I don’t even intend to binge, I just want 2 shots, and somehow it inevitably turns into slamming a fifth and acting out online.
So I’m not sure where I’m going with this, but thanks for being there.
Oh yeah, with the amount that the OP drinks, the alcohol is seeping through his pores.
Can’t tell you how many people have walked into AA meetings smelling like peppermint and vodka. Keep coming, as the saying goes.
ETA: Don’t worry about it, HMSI. Lots of help around if you want to avail yourself of it.
I hear what you are saying. I work in IT for a mega-multi-national conglomerate that has offshored, nearshored, or rightshored their operations across 18 time zones. Most of my interactions are via chat and email. I get my job done. The most people notice is that sometimes my response is 2 minutes rather than 1 minute, and that my car seems extraordinarily unreliable for a Honda. But thanks for the reality check, clearly I can’t do this forever.
Ok, we really have to talk.
OK, I’ll PM you. Just maybe not this exact moment right now. I’m having car trouble.
np, the day is long.
A tough lesson for me to accept was not to wrestle with giant monsters, or at the very least to not get emotionally invested in the battle and result. In the context of drinking, if you can turn your role in mega-issues into analyzing and witnessing the spectacle (of which you have near-zero power to affect) instead of anger, disgust, and frustration, then the drinking role becomes more of a “ha ha, cheers!” instead of “bullshit” response. Turns it more into a choice instead of a response, and puts you in control.
My two cents, best wishes
Drunk person playlist for tonight: “Rio” by Duran Duran, played 18 times in a row. Who’s down?
why not Men Without Hats
Rio just has the bass line. Listen to this, it is the bass line, not a solo.