You guys are gonna have to bear with me. This whole thing came to a head yesterday and I’m not sure how to feel about it. So, here’s something not so mundane, definitely pointless and…well, I don’t know what.
I was friends with this girl from kindergarten through college and for a while after we both had kids. We lost contact for a couple of years, then one day she texts me out of the blue to tell me that she & her husband had marital problems and that she was going on dating apps & Craig’s List and bringing guys home at night while her daughters slept upstairs. She bragged that she’d slept with something like 50-60 different guys in the previous month. The irony of this whole situation was that she was a devout Catholic who thought I’d go to hell for not being Christian. She was also a school psychologist.
Anyway, shortly after she texted me the first time, we talked and I told her that she was being really unsafe, putting herself and her family at risk and maybe it was time to separate from her husband (also cheating on her), and get some help for herself and possibly her girls. Fast forward a day and she texts me to tell me she was at some guy’s house she’d never met before and her kids were fine, even though they were at home alone. They were in preschool. I wasn’t sure who to call, but I knew her mom lived close by so I called her and told her everything.
She went over there, called the authorities and when all is said and done said former friend divorced her husband, her mom took the kids for a while and the friend moved to a different state. I blocked her on social media and moved on.
Former friend started making sock accounts on facebook & instagram to message me on about a monthly basis, asking to come visit her, that she wanted to explain herself in person, that she missed me and just wanted to give me a hug (not sure why but the idea of her hugging me squicked me out the most). This went on for around six or seven years. She wasn’t violent or threatening, but I just didn’t want anything to do with her. Anyway, she last contacted me in July 2021.
My mom & I were talking about her yesterday and I realized that I hadn’t heard from her in a long time. I looked her up online. Her socials had been deleted or posts removed back to the year she’d first begun cheating on her husband, which was weird, but I assumed it was related to having lost her kids. So I googled her. She’s been dead since about a week after she last contacted me.
I feel guilty because I ignored her and maybe I could’ve gotten her to stop doing whatever the hell she was doing - and more importantly I shouldn’t have waited until she told me her kids were home alone to call someone. But I feel happy that I won’t ever hear from her again. And again, I feel bad about being okay with never hearing from her again. I’m not celebrating the loss of her life, but I’m not sad about it either. And I feel bad for that, too.
So…that’s been my week so far.